Haven't had the Mos Burger yet. I am reminded of why I love Yokohama so much. It's so serene and full of old people! Well, in a way. Yesterday we went to Negishi Park Forest to check out the sakura and just chilled. The kids enjoyed themselves.

Check out the grandma rocking the DLSR!

Gangster cilik Negishi Park. She was upset that Rumi took her twig. It was not ever hers. It belongs to mother nature! Aku lempang kang budak comel ni kang.

Hai.

Ok that's it for now. Gonna catch up on my Korean drama. Yes yes I know I'm in Japan right now. ;p

Landed in chilly Narita late evening. Then took a 2-hour drive by bus to Yokohama. The kids are having high fever (the day before departure baru nak demam!) so you can imagine my restlessness throughout the flight. Gets more difficult when both boys want their Ayah for comfort.

Hope this kind of weather will help the boys recover faster. We got a lot of jalan2 to do!

YOKOHAMA, APRIL 2010. First agenda when I get there! Left for Narita today. Praying for good health and fine sakura blossom weather. See you on the other side.

Few more days to go till we fly off to my favorite land. Bags still unpacked.

One of my favorite place for carbonara if you ask me is Citrus, BV2 (near Borders Express and Canoodling). If you're tired of the ostentatious noisy ambience over at Delicious, Plan B or whatever franchise the Big B can come up with these days, head over to Citrus. Give it a try. On another note, our visa application has been approved yesterday and I am over the moon. Finally, a well-deserved break. I've been working non-stop since I came back to work after giving birth to Emre last year! Now all I need to do is figure out how to pack for four...

You know what I love about having kids?

Reasons #96232753: I get to order kids meal and eat it! Mwahaha.

(what? save budget what)

So at Del1cious today, my kid Rumi had a breakdown, he was cranky, he wants cake, he wants to roll around on the floor, he wants to go pharmacy, he wants the world as his oyster.. in other words, he was undecided. Moments like these, I don't throw a hissy fit. I prefer to take the I'm-just-gonna-watch-you-throw-your-tantrums approach (which most of the time doesn't work, really) but I don't want to shout at my kid or pick-him up and risk getting hit by him you know?

What I'm trying to get at is, there was this young mother with 2 kids giving me a dirty look. I know what she was thinking -- why am I not doing anything? I chose to ignore her because mothers tend to be judgmental of other mothers, we do it all the time. But yeah, whatever.

So I took Rumi to the pharmacy, came back, and had a fairly uninterrupted lunch. Until I heard the same mother yelling at her 4-yo kid (who decided to run away with her phone) for the entire restaurant to hear: WHERE ARE YOU GOING WITH MY PHONE?!! WHERE ARE YOU GOING WITH MY PHONE?!! Adoyai. Now that's a psycho mom. I may be a lousy mom but that woman really needs to chill man.

No wonder muka ketat je minah ittew. *roll eyes*

I'm 35 today. syukur & shukran.

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This is your sky today.

You would have been 68 today. On top of my head, this is what I imagined:
1. I'd cook for you. Yes I can cook. I can no longer remember what is your favorite meal, but I do remember you hate tomyam with a vengeance. You'd love a good sambal belacan, which only Mama can pull off a mean one for us.
2. I'd buy you all the plants in the world. Nobody inherited your green thumb. The longest plant I had with me was a lucky bamboo, which eventually died after 6 years when I moved out from our K loft. I'd build you a garden, I'd watch you spend your evening planting trees and grooming flowers with love because they were the only thing that made you happy.
3. I'd buy you chickens and ducks for your garden. Remember back then when we had 6 geese? I'd buy them for you too. They may be loud but you love them for their fierce loyalty. They'd bite, they'd chase us around but we'd keep them anyway.
4. I'll let you babysit my boys. I'm having a hard time what you'd do with them, but I suppose you'd take the out for a drive, perhaps to the park nearby where you'd teach them how to kick a ball. You probably want them footballers, you'd be their referee, their coach, their best (or worst) critic.
5. I know a good place in Keramat where you and I can indulge in ox tongue masak merah. It's so delicious I bet you'd be coming back for more.
6. After dinner we'd hang out at Dataran Merdeka, your favorite place to people watch. You once said we all can learn about other people just by observing them.

That's all I can think about for now. I'm sorry I wrote this in a rush. I'm sorry I've started forgetting things about you but I still miss you. I'm doing great, I wish I could repay you back although I know you'll have none of it. I hope I've made you proud.

Killing time while I wait for 530pm. Heading out to see the rockstar paed. My boys, are down with another round of diarrhea. As much as we try to eat in, we are not immune to the threats that come from within. I am worried, because I thought the rotavirus or whatever vaccinations the kids took should at least be able to protect them. One of the reason why my eldest doesn't go to pre-school is because I am terrified of the danger that creeps within the confinement of those public school walls but alas, we can't protect them forever.

 

Risau, seribu risau.

 

Children grow out of the sickness in due time, but right now is the toughest time.

Quick post while I wait for er, Melodi. Emre is asleep, while Kid Rumi is out with his "Ayah-boi" and Atuk for a haircut. You know I get nervous everytime the boy goes for a haircut. All I can say to my husband is "don't break my heart" a la Jo Kukhatas in the No Smoking community service ad. Heh.

Friday lunch was to celebrate our girl at the office 28th birthday. Eversince I fell in love with Cafe Barbera's coffee at KLIA, I figured it's time to check out their resto in Bangsar (few doors down from Rebung). Food didn't disappoint and it's not crowded like Plan B or Ben's, which I shouldn't really comparing them with CB. For me, a good meal is often determined by how awesome is the appetizer. and yay I love their mushroom soup. I had carbonara (it was alright) and for dessert we had all kinds of dessert from tiramisu, bread pudding, brownies with ice-cream (Delicious wins) and peach cake. Or something.

Last night's impromptu dinner with Nida's family was in Bangi. Wadihana Islamic Kitchen. Eh did I get this name right. The carbonara is divine! and the chicken wings too! Will definitely go back there. Didn't realize Bangi has so many eateries to check out. *slaps head*

ok Melodi almost starting. Eat well, peace out.

Lost an entire long post about my new shoes! Pfttthhh.

Just so you know my 2011 resolution was to learn how to bake brownies. Didn't happen.

2012? I don't know. I turn 35 in March and surprisingly I don't even have a wish list for this! By the way, I no longer want that Balenciaga bag. I was going ga-ga over charm bracelets for a while but that fizzled before I could even decide on a charm.

Well, that was that. Grateful that we didn't have to greet 2012 from the hospital bed. I'm praying that this year will be a healthier year for us -- besides, praying for a big fat bonus in this season of economic calamity is like wishing for the country to snow. Rezeki comes in many forms and while I'm not the type to preach, I am thankful for everything.

I'm updating this from a government hospital. Mom is here for observation after a bout of diarrhea. Can't help but feel sad for my Mama. While my son enjoyed a hotel-like stay at a nice hospital (thanks to the Company's hospital benefits), my mother is here at the hospital that needs a bit of cleaning. A lot of cleaning actually. Sigh. Hope Mama will be discharged soon. The hospital is never a happy place no matter how much you paid for it.

I've probably mentioned this before but if you're in need of a good pediatrician at Sunway Medical Centre, ask for Dr. Chye.

Ok bye. Or to quote my 15-year old niece: vye vye.

I'm expecting a (not-so-new) Mac next week so hopefully I can go back to regular programming in updating this space. Except, I think I said the same thing when we bought the iPad. The iPad? It's not mine anymore. It has Kid Rumi's fingerprints all over it. These days I only get to use it perhaps, I don't know, once a week on average. Think I also said the same thing about the iPod Touch no?

 

What a wonderful year it has been. Forget the tears and frustrations, I only want to dwell on the good and the awesome. Maybe I'll do a recap of 2011 next week, with photos. Let the photos do all the talking.

mind your language

Received a phone call from an ex-colleague offering a job and perhaps, better salary and benefits.

What impressed me most was that his English is better now, I remember I used to correct his grammar at work, in emails, correcting his English whenever I get the chance (mind you he was a manager back then and I was a lowly executive, we were not even in the same department!). 

 

I praised his flawless English and he simply replied, "sebab awak-lah". Happy to know that I am indeed, doing something good to people without realising it.

 

Perhaps I should start charging for ad-hoc English lessons?

 

 

I was watching this and suddenly remembered something -- didn't I used to meditate to this song? Winters ago, while nursing a broken heart, I took up yoga and did a lot of meditating. I remember the first few classes it was difficult for me to meditate -- for some unknown reason I was too afraid to clear my mind, I was too terrified of falling because the yoga teacher made us think of mountains, and rivers of clouds. I thought it was dumb, I don't want to die jumping off a cliff, and I didn't want to drown either.

Silly.

this sacrifice.

Hari Raya Qurban always reminds me of that particular year back while I was living alone in K metropolis. My beloved Danial was probably 13 or younger that time, and I made him go to the surau downstairs. "Perhaps they'll give you free meat", I said knowingly. How wrong I was. Danial waited and waited for the people there to give him some meat and they never did but he was too afraid to come home, worried that I might scold him for coming home empty-handed. When he got home he had tears in his eyes and kept saying sorry profusely to me.

 

I felt so bad for making Danial wait that long. I was watching him from the 7th floor, and he was there all the time. This boy would never disobey me, he has always been that good kid who'd do anything to make his loved ones happy.

 

I still miss him. I look at my kids and often wonder how Danial would love them unconditionally and how he'd be their 'abang' who they can look up to.

 

I miss my father too, I miss having a father figure who would tell me what's right and what's wrong, who probably will say Amy, you're moving too fast, you need to keep your feet on the ground. I miss having that superhero who is not afraid to fail and not reticent to show his weaknesses. The one who loves his Broery Marantika endlessly, the one who cooks up a storm in the kitchen eventhough there's nothing much too eat, the one who is stubborn but willing to listen, the list is an abyss...

 

How do people with this kind of emotional void in their heart move on with their lives? I am dying to know.

Money motivates. These days, when this urge to spend money on food or any shiny stuff I see online, I just stare at this bag and be reminded that I need to save money. Save money Nate. Save money. Saaaaave moneeeeeeeeeeey.

 

The thing is, I'm not sure if I even like this bag. This love-hate relationship I have with a Balenciaga is driving me nuts. I have too many bags already! But you don't have a really expensive bag, said the Devil. Look at the rose gold hardware studs. Aish, shut up! The leather is very light. Huwaaaaaaaa....

 

Ok bye. Happy Deepavali guys.

1. First thing you wash in the shower? Feet
2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Blue
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yes
4. Do you plan outfits? Every (other) day
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Neck hurting but I'm hooked on Protect the Boss
6. What’s the closest thing to you that’s red? My husband's external drive
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m? aim
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? My kids playing
9. Did you meet anybody new today? today? Nope.
10. What are you craving right now? Virgin sangria
11. Do you floss? Sometimes
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? Cabbage patch kids!
13. When was the last time you talked on aim? Never
14. Are you emotional? Yes hell yes
15. Would you dance to the taco song? I have no idea what this is although Taco Bell would be nice right now
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? Nope
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? Lick it
18. Do you like your hair? No, but ask me again tomorrow, I have a hair appointment after lunch
19. Do you like yourself? Sometimes
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Yes
21. Do you like cottage cheese? Yes
22. What are you listening to right now? Tablo's sizzling new album http://youtu.be/dPmX-K7eadM
23. How many countries have you visited? Less than 10 I think
24. Are your parents strict? No
25. Would you go sky diving? No
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? No
27. Would you throw potatoes at him? Yes
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? Yes, my favorite pen Neri got for me from HK
29. Have you ever been in a castle? Yes
30. Do you rent movies often? No
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class? Can't recall
32. Have you made a prank phone call? Yes, in high school
33. Do you own a gun? No
34. Can you count backwards from 74? I have not tried
35. Who are you going to be with tonight? My small family
36. Brown or white eggs? Brown
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? No
38. Ever been on a train? Yes
39. Ever been in love? Yes
40. Do you have a cell-phone? Yes
41. Are you too forgiving? Not really
42. Do you use chap stick? Yes
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? Whine about work. Heh.
44. Can you use chop sticks? Yes
45. Ever have cream puffs? Yes

(stolen from my fellow noona, Suzie)

I wish I was in a food business

Fasting month over and what else to do but go back to our regular foodie programming!

Tough week again so last Friday we drove to Bangsar Village 1 to check out Ben's. I've always wanted to go there, been hearing people raving about it, the pizza's good! and knowing that it's under the same management as Delicious and Plan B, I doubt we could go wrong with the food there. 

Except, I didn't know that 

BEN'S;

BEN'S GENERAL FOOD STORE;

are 2 different restaurants guys.. -_-

Was disappointed that Ben's GFS don't serve pasta (WHAT NO PASTA) because we googled the menu before heading to Bangsar (yeah, wrong menu, derp) and opted for Salami pizza which turned out very nice. Didn't get to take a picture of the pizza because I was starving. Heh. Had bread & butter pudding for dessert and latte and I am happy person. I'd definitely come again if I'm feeling health conscious BUT I STILL WANT MY PASTA. With lots of cream on it.

Ambiance is a bit noisy, you know how much I hate sitting too close with other patrons because I will end up eavesdropping on them. British grandmas on my left can't wait for Christmas, and mak datins behind us insist that the the cute waiter cut the pizza for them. Pfffttthhh.

So apparently my work is deteriorating again. I tried digging deeper into this issue -- am I depressed? Does my work-life balance needs rehashing? Do I watch too much k-pop? Am I not doing enough laundry? No no no no.

I love my job. However, loving your job but you're not that good at it can be problematic too. Or maybe I'm just too comfortable here. I don't know. I guess I just have to buck-up. But how does one improves the quality of work when the only (annoying) voice you hear at work is the demotivating type?

*grumble grumble*

My drooling rugrat turns 6 months today! Party!
(actually I need to work harder -- have you not seen the cost of formula milk these days?)

... and then he progresses...

My iPod is acting up today! Arghhhh. I noticed that if I let my baby play with it (SALIVATE all over it more like it) then the iPod will go all diva on me. Pssshhhhhh.

My 3 kids are a handful these days. Rumi dances like Pocoyo, Emre is cranky (teething, poor baby) and Alebu the cow is so smelly! Heh.

To keep the creative juice flowing (or what's left of it) I'm gonna update this blog more often. If you noticed in my previous post I updated via my iPod. When I'm at home I hardly use my blackberry (apart from whatsapp & the occasional sms). Most of the time I'll be on the 'pod, doing everything an iPad could do. Fun!

With the current surge (God Nate can you not write like an economist now) of nuffnang-blogs (hate them, where is the passion in writing money-driven blogs?) I'm kinda grateful with the minimal readers I get here. I'm happier to know that some of you have been growing with me since my hedonistic Diaryland days! Let's keep it low key like that lah kan. :)

So, 'welcome back'!

Spent 4 days in sweet Kota Bharu. It's good to be 'home', although we don't have a place to stay this time around. My grandmother's house is temporarily rented out but I don't want to talk about it further. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. It's sad to see how families can be easily broken when they fight over material things.

But that aside, it's great to be back. I'd never say no great food. Visited the cemetery and some relatives. Rantau Panjang for cheap kaftans and jerseys, Kubang Pasu for delicious nasi dagang, etc etc.

On our 2nd day there I decided to splurge a little. I bought my first gold! But not that little considering the price of gold (as of a couple of days ago) was RM188 per gram. And I don't even wear gold to begin with! But since I'm a very low risk investor and I dare not venture further than the usual ASB & TH investments, I figured buying gold would be the next best thing.

To be honest I couldn't stop staring at this pretty little thing. I always wanted a bracelet that is not too big to be noticed but not too thin that may break so easily. A trip to a gold shop is very intimidating, especially when the people on your left and right are buying chunky gold stuff and paying in bulky cash no less.

Only one depressing thing, if I die, who will inherit my one and only string of hard-earned harta? One of my sisters or nieces? Or one of my boys' wives? :)

You may think that I'm so pathetic for worrying about this. But if there's one thing I've learned about death -- you need to have a will. Estate planning is important. Trust me, you never know who'll be fighting over your estate.

That aside, all I'm hearing while I was in KB was "you should try for a girl". Arghhh you smartypants should just shut up and breed your own kids. Realistically it's not cheap to raise kids these days. My head throbs like k-pop beats everytime I think about education fees and healthcare. -__-

Oh hey, I just realised that I updated a 'wordless wednesday' on a Thursday.

 

Eh, I so clever lah!

#wordlesswednesday

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Funny how I compare cooking like going into a battle. I need to strategize, go forth and fight! If fail, retreat or have a back-up plan. Ayam padprik turned out to be really good thank god. I have a knack of browsing for recipes and choose the easiest ones to make or the type of recipes that comes with exact measurements. Puasa what. Cannot taste. ;)

Also made butter prawns, a simple recipe lifted off from trymasak.tv and for once they have a recipe that really works!

It's 2am right now and it's raining heavily. Hope I can get up on time for sahur.

Blessed month

Alamak, didnt get to post the pre-Ramadhan stuff I ate.

 

With the ridiculous cost of iftar buffets going up every year I doubt I'll be eating out this month. Oh, except for Al-Salam resto which I'll probably check out next weekend.

 

But if I have money I'd check out the buffet at Rebung -- the food there doesn't disappoint!

 

Tak balik Raya tahun ni. Most likely I'll go back the week after to coincide with Danial's 1-year death anniversary. Cepat betul masa berlalu. I said goodbye to Danial last year during the final week of Ramadhan on his hospital bed. "Kita jumpa di KB okay".

 

I tak peluk dia kuat-kuat.

I tak gosok kepala dia, I tak tatap muka dia betul-betul.

I tak cium pipi dia.

 

Tak terfikir langsung that he was just waiting for 1st Syawal to leave us forever. I know I shouldn't be beating myself up over this but I just can't help it. Healing process takes the longest time.

 

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On a happier note,

my husband turns (jap i kira with a kalkulator kejap - my Maths is very bad!) 32 today. wow masih muda! the trick to buying a good gift for your spouse is -- there isn't any. No more surprise gifts at least, asyik salah beli je. So sorry!

 

and three of my buddies are pregnant. Jealous leyyyy. Especially with the surge of baby girls born lately. Do you not see how cute Sheikh Muzaffar & Jimmy Shanley babies are! Read somewhere that the astronaut's wife tak berpantang sangat pun. I feel less guilty now!  Also, congrats to Cik Daun on the birth of her baby boy.

 

My rugrat Emre is doing find except for his eczema problem.

I don't know how babies can produce so much saliva! No sign of teething but he slobbers all over us on a daily basis hee hee. Don't think I was craving for anything particular during pregnancy.

 

Maybe nak handbag mahal kot? ;)

 

 

 

 

Lunch with vendors and dinner with a dear friend tomorrow. I sense 2 resto reviews coming! :)

supir-mak

How do you guys do it? Come home after a long day at work then cook dinner. Perhaps do a little laundry and cleaning. Watch a bit of your favorite k-drama and spend time with your kids.

 

I did just that last night, but unfortunately it's not something that I wish I can do on a daily basis. I wish my eyelids didn't have to be so heavy by the time the clock hits 9pm.

 

My neighbor upstairs, a fierce Kelantanese lady (I should know, I always hear her screaming at her 3 kids and husband haha) wakes up at 430am (almost) on a daily basis, when she's not cooking at night that is. She is probably maidless too like me, but everytime I see her with her kids, I'd go "man, that's a superwoman over there". My sister has 5 kids, with or without a maid she is constantly on her toes, persis a captain commanding his ship. I can only salute her.

 

Me? Cooking and laundry are meant for weekends. But then again, most weekends we'll be out and in the end, I'd be backlogged with a mountain of clothes and a fridge of wasted veggies and poultries. I am definitely not a superwoman.

 

But I'd like to believe that I AM a supermom. *winks*

 

Ramadhan is almost here. I managed to get my tealady (no, actually I begged her) to sew my baju Raya. Thank God. Now need to think about the rest of the family's baju Raya (yay for having boys!) and make travel arrangements for a holiday in Kota Bharu. Sad to say since my Queen Mother, my dad and my beloved nephew passed away, Kota Bharu is now just a holiday destination. I refuse to deal with harta-sucking relatives and I only want to come home to my Kota Bharu which I love so much for its food and cemetery. Sad but true.

 

I think there is a special hell for me for that. Sigh.

duviet, uptown

Wasn't in the mood to take pictures today (one of those days of TAKDE MOOD SEHARIAN).

 

Lunch with my bestfriends at Duviet, Uptown. I had their Vietnam fried rice which looks like fried rice ulam to me. But I gobbled it up licin anyway. Appetizer was very nice (as pictured), I makan sahaja, I tak pasti apa yang telah dimakan. Haha!

 

-_-

 

Weekend is here. Need to catch-up on laundry, spend time with my pretty Mama, probably cook a little, read a chapter or two of Hemingway and maybe potty-train kid Rumi.

 

Next week I have a photoshoot with a magazine. Very excited although it's just a small gig.

I just want to feel pretty again.

Dancing Fish

Oh I'm on a roll now. But all my posts are all food-related. :)

   

Anyway, I was telling my husband perhaps we should go on a dinner date at least once a month. Something we should have done long ago.

So last month we went to Dancing Fish. I earlier wanted to revisit Avanti over at Sunway Hotel because they serve the best Italian food there but I had to opt for a resto closer to the office. So Dancing Fish it was, a Malay_Indo joint located on the 3^rd floor of BSC.

 

As you know, the 'dancing fish' refers to the fish fried in such a way that makes the fish look like it's dancing. Woah. I very the jakun.

The fish itself is very crispy, even the bones. We also had some side dishes – kangkong belacan and cumi-cumi (fried squid).  What else did we order, ah yes, drinks. Roy had timun soda, an ice-blended concoction of cucumber and er, soda. I had a Shirley Temple I think– did I? or did I not? Eh wait, I had watermelon lah. God this is probably the lousiest food review you've ever read because I am trying to recall everything from memory and we all know my memory is as short as my hair these days. Ha! Pemalas.

 

If you must know there are 3 types of rice to choose from here, and oh, for appetizer we were served with bitter crackers and sambal pedas.  A wonderful combination I must say. To top everything off we had shaved ice with mango for dessert. Nice.

 

The bill? We hit up about RM130++ for 2 pax, not cheap, but good food, great service, I can't ask for more.

 

Reservation is important here as the place is always packed. Tried to go there for lunch without making any reservation, jangan harap.

 

I think I'm done with my food spiel for now. If there's something I don't mind spending money on, it's definitely food. Food glorious food!

Stuff Your Face, BSC

Apologies if the pictures are a bit dark.

 

Lunch today was at BSC. Saja je google for a place to eat at BSC and friedchillies recommended this place.

Located at the kids' floor at BSC, as warned, the place is rather noisy with expat kids running around - can't imagine this place during weekends.

 

Anyway, few weeks back I ordered the wrong chicken chop at Coliseum (was craving for hainanese style chicken chop but ordered the black pepper one instead) so I thought I'd give this place a try.

 

Eyy, not bad lah! But of course the winner of all Hainanese Chicken Chop would be Cozy Corner man! But Stuff Your Face's chickchop will be a good back-up plan if I'm in the mood for one.

 

Oh shit I just realised they now have Cozy Corner at Jaya 33!

 

Anyway, I digress. My colleague ordered the chicken curry (in a tiffin no less) but the curry was spicy but tasteless. Blergh. My latte wasn't that great either. For an RM10 latte I'd be more satisfied with an RM8 latte at SanFran Coffee.

 

Didn't get to check out the desserts though - they have fried Mars Bar! Will probably come again to check it out.

 

Now, who wants to bring their kids for a playdate with me and my rowdy cowboy soon?

Plan B

I wanted to type Plan B just now but terlajak type Plan BN. Oops!

 

Been craving carbonara for days, but didn't have the time to drag my husband for my carbonara fix either at Food Foundry or Pizza Uno.

 

Today by chance I ended up at Plan B over at BV1. Decided to give their carbonara a shot and wahey for RM19 I get a very tasty & rich meal!

My colleague had fish&chip but it wasn't your typical one because it is served like a burger. The fish 'burger' is thick and juicy.Recommended as well.

 

I hate eating at places that are noisy, especially when the table next to mine is so close that I can't help but eavesdrop la kan. I'm not the type who likes to listen in on other people because I can never keep my face straight but I have no choice here. ;p I can't carry a conversation for more than 5 minutes so it was nice to see the dating couple talking about many things from Bersih to religion to books and the list goes on... I bet the guy has a set of questions that can last him for the whole day! Bravo.

 

The lady who sat next to me has a nice Prada bag. She kept feeling her bag, probably worried that I might run with it and scream "The Prada is mineeeeeeee!". ;p

 

Too afraid to walk, I might fall over.

(sleepy)

Makin dekat dengan Ramadhan, makin kuat rindu pada arwah Danial. I don't know what's wrong with me but I miss him terribly. Every single day teringatkan pada arwah, especially during my long drive to work/home. All I can do now is to doakan kesejahteraannya di sana.

:(

Rasa macam nak muntah dah pergi hair salon. I can't seem to be satisfied with my new hairstyle -- no idea why, perhaps now that I'm getting older, my hair texture has changed as well (tapi perangai masih di takuk lama yes?). Fed-up. I want to look good when I go back to work, since I can't impress my colleagues with my weight. Why is it that when someone comes back from maternity leave, people will be expecting that person to lose weight? Come on. Shallow sungguh. When I had my first baby, my excuse for not losing weight was that I am preparing for second baby, buat penat je kalau lose weight sebab nanti akan naik balik. Bollocks. But it kept everyone quiet. But now I have no excuse at all. I JUST LIKE BEING FAT ALRIGHT?!! Yeah. Emo pulak saya.



I'm not really looking forward to go back to work. I miss my colleagues, but I think the dynamics of the department have changed. Not sure how much of this is true, I'm gonna have to check it out myself. 3 of my favorite people that I work with (from our ad agency and HQ) have quit too so I foresee there will be some problems ahead. Tak tahulah. A job is a job is a job. I'm comfortable here. Not sure if other people feel the same though.

Enough about work.

Wouldn't it be nice if I could sleep and hug my boys at the same tight. Peluk mereka kuat-kuat. I want them to know I love them tremendously.

It's been a crazy 3 months and on the 20th I go back to work. Funny, last year I couldn't imagine myself having two kids, now I can't imagine NOT having two kids. Both boys are so different from one another and everyday I am experiencing new things. Rumi, the feral child; Emre, the giver of smiles. Motherhood has taught me to learn not to lose my cool easily, but it has also taught me to reciprocate -- the children comes first, while my needs can come later, or never. Not that it's a bad thing.

In a nutshell, motherhood is a Pyrrhic victory for me against many of my insecurities and flaws -- everyday I can only pray that my little family will continue to be blessed with so much love and happiness.

Now if only I could lose few more pounds...

Great, just when was in the mood to update, blogger was pulak down. Boo.

Anyway, I have about a month or so to be with the kids full time before I start work on the 20th June. It’s been fun staying at home with the kids. Well, most of the time it’s fun. Bathe the kids, figure out what to eat, do laundry, watch tv, fold laundry, attempt to cook (once) aaaand at the same time watch over the abang who likes to bully the adik. Love works in mysterious ways, I tell my friend Chee, even if it involves tarik rambut adik / cucuk mata adik / squeeze kaki tangan adik / lepuk kepala adik, you know, that sort of brotherly love thing.

I’m watching Julie & Julia for the umpteenth time right now. Fast forward to Julie Powell sections only. She is me – we never finish anything. I have not touched my camera for weeks, my photobook project never took off, my cooking has gotten worse etc. etc. My rice was overcooked, my fried chicken terlebih kunyit, my egg masak tomato was too spicy. *sigh*

This is how my hair looks like these days – the epitome of servantless working mom. Eh, ini excuse sahaja, I’m not even working right now!



Have a good weekend. Saya nak makan red velvet cake.