My mother used to spend hours in front of the tv sambil melipat baju dan melayan sinetron/telenovela. I would do the same but both sinetron/telenovela -- I cannot tahan. Marshanda/Bintang/Kejora should all die a slow painful death like the slow-motion shots that happens every five minutes in the sinetron. Marshanda punya slow-mo shot mesti dengan mulut ternganga which I don't get at all. An expression of guilt, or anger, or shock doesn't need to be with a open mouth no?

Telenovela(s) are as horrible, because Pinoys dress like whores and their boobies are too big for their body. And they have talking dogs! But I shall not comment much about telenovela. My adik angkat is now dating a Filipino (I don't know how to tell him that she looks like a man with overblown boobies and fake lips). Mwahaha.

Gambar di atas? Tiada kena mengena dengan topik yang dibincangkan di sini. I got bored.

p/s: I secretly wish Malaysian dramas can be made panjang berjela rentak berlipat like sinetron&telenovela. Si Capik doesn't count.

My little bat is asleep (he'll probably wake up by the time I'm sleepy!) and I should take this little chance to update this space. But I don't really have anything to say right now. Another bad weekend for me so hopefully next week things will get better. I keep telling my husband that "I'm trying very hard", you know, just to act like a sane wife but sometimes I just get too tired and sick of myself. Sometimes I just want to duduk dalam store and cry myself out because talking about it would make things worse.

But inilah cabaran kehidupan wanita berpantang. Dalam masa 44 hari senang sahaja you lose grip of your sanity. Just few more days to go, Nate. Berusahalah!

Lepas ni kita pergi shopping okay. Duit bonus masih menanti untuk dihabiskan tanpa berfikir dua kali.

If my calculation is correct, I should finish my pantang on 2nd May. But if I wanna cheat and go for the 40 days confinement instead of the punishing 44 days, it'll be end of April.

Yah, yah, berusahalah Nate!

(I think I've been punished enough)

My little oppa, yang pandai membawa diri.

Mana ada sepi!

Anyway, having someone close to you lose her baby at a babysitter has made me extra paranoid about bringin up kids. It's not just about the issue of negligent babysitters, but also the weight of bringing a child into this world and ensuring that you don't have to see your child go before you do. A morbid topic of discussion, yes, it's something that every parents fear I suppose. Or should we just bertawakal and berserah pada ketentuan Allah sahaja? I could, but since I'm in confinement, I'm allowed to wallow myself in insecurities and fear for my children.

(wow, I said 'children'. 10 years ago mana ada terfikir to have kids.)

Anyway, I still have another 2 months to decide on what to do next once I start working again. Nak hantar ke daycare or not? Find a babysitter? Status quo? I will find my answers then.

In the meantime, I got some online shopping to do and sputter some merapu-ness on my twitter before kid Emre wakes up. It's kid Rumi's first day at the cinema with his dad today. Harap-harap dia behave.

Today I watched Life as a House (the dying father re-built a house, rediscovering the lost bond he had with his miscreant son) and thought, would I'd be a different person if I lost my dad from a terrible illness instead of having him yanked from my life all of a sudden?

But I lost Danial from cancer and I'm still regretting the time not spent with him. I don't know where this entry is heading, I just miss them both very much. *sigh*

Note to self: That's it, no more sad movies for me. Life is a great big canvas kan, I still have a lot of space to paint it with happiness.

Still alive. Takde mood nak update apa-apa. My new little bat is lovely, kita namakan dia Emre, and I'm just waiting for the 40 days to be over!!! Nghhhhhhhhhhh! :)

I can wait.

Damn I'm huge. a photo by natinski on Flickr.

With the recent developments in Japan, I feel that giving birth is the least of my worry right now. I packed my hospital bag, while my in-laws in Yokohama packed their evacuation bags. Hope everybody will be safe.

I'm officially on MC now. Not sure when will I pop, maybe this week, maybe not.

Refrain!

Yes I do realize that I should start buying stuff for the 2nd kid but! Why does everything has to look so nice these days?!!

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Had lunch at Bumbu Bali today (I never say no to free food). The last time I was there was like 7 years ago - so when my sister-in-law asked "what's good there?", I dare not say much. I can't remember. Surely you can't go wrong with Indonesian food yes? And always choose chicken. Chicken never disappoints! Heh.

Well the food didn't disappoint. Everything was good but the surefire winner was the apple splash mocktail. Hmmm sedapnya, on a hot scorching day I don't mind having glasses of this lovely drink.

Alamak nak hujan. Mahu angkat kain.

Laksam di hati

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Our kid, Idris Rumi

Our kid, Idris Rumi
Originally uploaded by natinski

Wish I was as talented as my husband. :)

When the 2nd baby comes out, I feel the need to apologize to him for drinking too much coffee.

What I'm wearing:
Star Wars tee from Uniqlo
Stretchy pants from Pengkalan Kubur, Kelate
Double chin
(ha ha!)

34 weeks and counting. No crazy cravings for now but I do like my mee hoon goreng and chrysanthemum tea. And brownies. Shot this today while waiting for my kid to wake up, sungguh sangap. Husband was down with cough and diarrhea for the past few days and today my kid looks like he is on his way to recovery from diarrhea (yes him too) since last Sunday. He's all skins and bones now. Terjojol dah segala tulang. *sad face*

Well looks like my object of interest for the past few weeks are toys. First picture was taken yesterday - I managed to wash my kid's comfort Boo! Yeah! Not an easy feat because he needs his Boo every other hour. Julia the doll's pic was taken the day before at Rumi's cousin's house and the last pic is Rodney Copperbottom. He is mine. No one is allowed to touch him except me. Sentimental value weh, a gift from my good friend few years back.

The 4 days break was a blessing for us workaholics to spend time with the family but today was slightly marred because Rumi had diarrhea! Adeh, not fun at all. So not looking forward to work esok. Pfttthhhh.

Can't really think right now when some units doing renovations and pounding away. My kid is asleep, love it when I have him all to myself. Menguji kesabaran sungguh! In a good way of course. :)

Esok cuti FT, I should take advantage of this. Perhaps settle some bills, unbox some boxes, I don't know. Or sleep in. Rasa mahu jadi cocoon sahaja sejak akhir-akhir ini.

Gonna take a nap for a bit. Later nak kena drive jauh. Ouh.

So my blog went missing for 10 days. I didn't know whether I should laugh or cry. I've always had a love-hate relationship with blogging, I want to be heard, but not by many; sometimes I just want to rant without sounding stupid; most of the time I want to rant and not be judged for the stuff I've said here. Guess I can't win at everything. Tapi I won't lie - saya ada sedikit gelabah apabila blog hilang. But in case it goes missing again, fret not, it might come back. Unless I decided to go dramatic and quit internet altogether (tapi saya masih tidak boleh hidup tanpa twitter). I suppose I still need this space whether I like it or not. I have short-term memory (self-diagnosed, bukan kata pakar) jadi from time to time I'd go back to my archive and reminisce about kisah zaman dahulu.

I'm 32 weeks pregnant now. Panic attack mula melanda. I don't know why this second pregnancy seems scarier than the first. *sad face*

Oh wow I can't believe my eyes I got my blog back!

Something worth reflecting- about this whole 'losing your blog' saga. Maybe later.

Tahun ini tahun memperbaiki kekhilafan kewangan. Insya-Allah tanjah!

Lately I find myself fighting for my kids's kasih sayang with this smelly cow. Mr. Boo. Geram pun ada because he's very attached with it. Yang kelakarnya, he's always forgetting mana dia campak Boo (most of the time in the kitchen). Bila kid Rumi makan nasi, he will feed Boo as well. Kalau dia tumpahkan air, Boo yang kena lap-kan. Bila he sees something that he likes, he will make Boo kiss it. So yeah, you can imagine how comot this cow is. If I ask my kid for a kiss, he will make Boo kiss me, euw euw euw. In other words, pagi petang siang malam dengan Boo. Dalam swimming pool je he will forget about Boo momentarily. Ngggghhh.

Konsert Super Junior this year is confirmed on the 21st of March. I'm due on 25th March.
*cries a river*