I can wait.

Damn I'm huge. a photo by natinski on Flickr.

With the recent developments in Japan, I feel that giving birth is the least of my worry right now. I packed my hospital bag, while my in-laws in Yokohama packed their evacuation bags. Hope everybody will be safe.

I'm officially on MC now. Not sure when will I pop, maybe this week, maybe not.

Refrain!

Yes I do realize that I should start buying stuff for the 2nd kid but! Why does everything has to look so nice these days?!!

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Had lunch at Bumbu Bali today (I never say no to free food). The last time I was there was like 7 years ago - so when my sister-in-law asked "what's good there?", I dare not say much. I can't remember. Surely you can't go wrong with Indonesian food yes? And always choose chicken. Chicken never disappoints! Heh.

Well the food didn't disappoint. Everything was good but the surefire winner was the apple splash mocktail. Hmmm sedapnya, on a hot scorching day I don't mind having glasses of this lovely drink.

Alamak nak hujan. Mahu angkat kain.

Laksam di hati

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Our kid, Idris Rumi

Our kid, Idris Rumi
Originally uploaded by natinski

Wish I was as talented as my husband. :)

When the 2nd baby comes out, I feel the need to apologize to him for drinking too much coffee.

What I'm wearing:
Star Wars tee from Uniqlo
Stretchy pants from Pengkalan Kubur, Kelate
Double chin
(ha ha!)

34 weeks and counting. No crazy cravings for now but I do like my mee hoon goreng and chrysanthemum tea. And brownies. Shot this today while waiting for my kid to wake up, sungguh sangap. Husband was down with cough and diarrhea for the past few days and today my kid looks like he is on his way to recovery from diarrhea (yes him too) since last Sunday. He's all skins and bones now. Terjojol dah segala tulang. *sad face*

Well looks like my object of interest for the past few weeks are toys. First picture was taken yesterday - I managed to wash my kid's comfort Boo! Yeah! Not an easy feat because he needs his Boo every other hour. Julia the doll's pic was taken the day before at Rumi's cousin's house and the last pic is Rodney Copperbottom. He is mine. No one is allowed to touch him except me. Sentimental value weh, a gift from my good friend few years back.

The 4 days break was a blessing for us workaholics to spend time with the family but today was slightly marred because Rumi had diarrhea! Adeh, not fun at all. So not looking forward to work esok. Pfttthhhh.

Can't really think right now when some units doing renovations and pounding away. My kid is asleep, love it when I have him all to myself. Menguji kesabaran sungguh! In a good way of course. :)

Esok cuti FT, I should take advantage of this. Perhaps settle some bills, unbox some boxes, I don't know. Or sleep in. Rasa mahu jadi cocoon sahaja sejak akhir-akhir ini.

Gonna take a nap for a bit. Later nak kena drive jauh. Ouh.

So my blog went missing for 10 days. I didn't know whether I should laugh or cry. I've always had a love-hate relationship with blogging, I want to be heard, but not by many; sometimes I just want to rant without sounding stupid; most of the time I want to rant and not be judged for the stuff I've said here. Guess I can't win at everything. Tapi I won't lie - saya ada sedikit gelabah apabila blog hilang. But in case it goes missing again, fret not, it might come back. Unless I decided to go dramatic and quit internet altogether (tapi saya masih tidak boleh hidup tanpa twitter). I suppose I still need this space whether I like it or not. I have short-term memory (self-diagnosed, bukan kata pakar) jadi from time to time I'd go back to my archive and reminisce about kisah zaman dahulu.

I'm 32 weeks pregnant now. Panic attack mula melanda. I don't know why this second pregnancy seems scarier than the first. *sad face*

Oh wow I can't believe my eyes I got my blog back!

Something worth reflecting- about this whole 'losing your blog' saga. Maybe later.

Tahun ini tahun memperbaiki kekhilafan kewangan. Insya-Allah tanjah!

Lately I find myself fighting for my kids's kasih sayang with this smelly cow. Mr. Boo. Geram pun ada because he's very attached with it. Yang kelakarnya, he's always forgetting mana dia campak Boo (most of the time in the kitchen). Bila kid Rumi makan nasi, he will feed Boo as well. Kalau dia tumpahkan air, Boo yang kena lap-kan. Bila he sees something that he likes, he will make Boo kiss it. So yeah, you can imagine how comot this cow is. If I ask my kid for a kiss, he will make Boo kiss me, euw euw euw. In other words, pagi petang siang malam dengan Boo. Dalam swimming pool je he will forget about Boo momentarily. Ngggghhh.

Konsert Super Junior this year is confirmed on the 21st of March. I'm due on 25th March.
*cries a river*

A parent should never bury their own child

 

Against everybody's advice today, I went to the funeral of my colleague's 4 months-old gorgeous baby girl. We sit next to each other at work, and setiap hari pasti kami akan bertukar-tukar cerita anak-anak kami. Sejak mendapat berita semalam, I couldn't believe my ears and I thought I was imagining things. Sehingga pagi ini bila kami sampai di rumahnya, dan sekujur badan kecil menanti di ruang tamu, ya Allah, akhirnya terpaksa menerima hakikat bahawa baby Deanna sudah dipanggil oleh Yang Maha Esa dan diangkat ke syurga.

 

It was a classic case of kematian berpunca dari tersedak susu di rumah babysitter. Terlalu mengharukan apabila the mother was the one who discovered her, already blue, di rumah babysitter (the babysitter thought that arwah was sleeping). It's just so unacceptable how people can be so careless.

 

Semoga my colleague tabah menghadapi dugaan yang begitu besar sebegini. Al-Fatihah.

Cerita aftermath bag kena ragut - well, got my C1MB credit card statement and wahlau penyangak2 itu sudah swipe saya punya card di Shell station sebanyak 200 bucks! There was a gap about an hour before I could block the card and now I have to fill up a dispute form to get my money back. Ah, more forms to fill, more time on the phone with the customer service.

Cit1bank said there was attempt to swipe my card as well, on 2 separate days (at the same Shell too). *Sigh*

It's unfortunate that both banks are unable to detect which rangkaian (?) Shell it was otherwise I would have done my own investigation thingy. Beli apa di Shell dengan harga RM200?

Semalam kami ke MidValley to get a new smartphone for me. Aduh sales assistants di Malaysia ni kenapa lah kamu kurang mesra dengan pelanggan! Whatever. If I tak pregnant I would have said to his face "sorry I tak jadi beli, service you teruk" but I needed to buy my phone. *sigh*

First post of 2011.

We went to IKEA in the morning, dengan satu juta rakyat Malaysia yang lain. Grabbed whatever came my way - dengan budak hyper yang berkaki ayam and refused to stay in shopping cart. Haihhh penat!

We are finally sleeping at our new loft tonight, which feels great!

I don't really have much to say right now but I pray that everyone will have a safe and prosperous 2011! God bless.

/n.

Sementara I tunggu masa nak balik, I might as well update this space.

I'm okay. Really, I am.

Cuma, bila berada di traffic light di hadapan Plaza OUG, mulalah gelisah. My grip on the steering wheel gets tighter, kejap2 tengok cermin, mata pun mulalah berair sambil wishing that the red light will turn green as soon as possible.

 

I hate being a victim. I hate travelling to work thinking that I'll be safe anymore. I sleep okay at night, but my drive to-and-fro work kini sudah menjadi a living nightmare.

 

Tak apalah. Just a few months lagi. Then I beranak, and duduk diam2 di rumah for 90 days.

 

Saat2 begini I'm grateful to have friends yang sudi menghulurkan bantuan. Friendship work both ways, bukan one-sided. Tak semestinya bila kita dalam kesusahan je baru kedengaran suara yes?

 

Dah, malas melalut. Esok sudah boleh tidur di tempat baru. Syukur, we can finally live like a normal family, and tak payah jadi nomad dah. Yay!

Oh where do I even begin. Lepas seksa siapkan annual December office project, we finally took a day off to move house. That was on Monday.

It felt really good to finally be able to move to a place we can call home. On Tuesday, I was really excited to go to work. My workload has lessened by half, we moved house and my kid was showing sign of recovery - he's been sick on and off.

Haengbok (happiness) shortlived. Ketika di traffic light plaza oug di old klang road, I made the wrong move of taking my handbag from passenger's seat floor to fish out my phone. Tak sampai few seconds 2 men on a bike smashed my window and stold my handbag. Coz my hand was on my handbag, I got some minor cuts on my left hand.

Rasa kecewa tidak terkata. I've always been a careful person. Handbag tak pernah letak atas passenger seat but that fateful day... entahlah, dah nasib badan.

sedih
trauma
kesal

rasa seperti tiada identiti. my phones, my (new) camera, wallet with gambar muda arwah Baba all gone. i only had 7 bucks in my wallet at that time but you know the hassle of losing all your identification cards and ATM/credit cards kan?

besar sungguh dugaan mengandung kali ini. but someone said, at least you have a story to tell your baby #2 bila dia besar nanti. that's true. sad, but true.

I still have to pass by the road everysingleworkingday. I cant turn back time, but I cant stop from the memory coming back either. *sigh*

Esok I'm still on MC.

Semoga 2011 will be a better year for me.

this view

Like I don't say this enough, December adalah bulan stress for me. People go for their extended holidays or plan parties in December, while I have to work extra hard pada bulan ini. That's why many little things tend to annoy me easily.

 

Perhaps I should tell my boss that I want to change portfolio next year. Er, maybe not.

 

Anyway, tak sabar nak pindah rumah!

 

p/s: I didn't take this picture, my husband did during his recent trip to Tokyo. I like looking at it because it has a calming effect on me. Perhaps I should move to Tokyo...

boots1

boots1
Originally uploaded by natinski

My kid is out for a haircut (in his boots). I decided not to go so that I can catch up with work (yeah right) and the family demands that his hair should be cut shorter. My heart couldn't take it. Please don't cut my baby's hair!

Mengada sungguh. Bukannya rambut tu tak boleh tumbuh balik. He's not Samson anyway, he'll still be bouncing of the walls kalau berambut pendek. Heheh.