Sementara I tunggu masa nak balik, I might as well update this space.

I'm okay. Really, I am.

Cuma, bila berada di traffic light di hadapan Plaza OUG, mulalah gelisah. My grip on the steering wheel gets tighter, kejap2 tengok cermin, mata pun mulalah berair sambil wishing that the red light will turn green as soon as possible.

 

I hate being a victim. I hate travelling to work thinking that I'll be safe anymore. I sleep okay at night, but my drive to-and-fro work kini sudah menjadi a living nightmare.

 

Tak apalah. Just a few months lagi. Then I beranak, and duduk diam2 di rumah for 90 days.

 

Saat2 begini I'm grateful to have friends yang sudi menghulurkan bantuan. Friendship work both ways, bukan one-sided. Tak semestinya bila kita dalam kesusahan je baru kedengaran suara yes?

 

Dah, malas melalut. Esok sudah boleh tidur di tempat baru. Syukur, we can finally live like a normal family, and tak payah jadi nomad dah. Yay!

Oh where do I even begin. Lepas seksa siapkan annual December office project, we finally took a day off to move house. That was on Monday.

It felt really good to finally be able to move to a place we can call home. On Tuesday, I was really excited to go to work. My workload has lessened by half, we moved house and my kid was showing sign of recovery - he's been sick on and off.

Haengbok (happiness) shortlived. Ketika di traffic light plaza oug di old klang road, I made the wrong move of taking my handbag from passenger's seat floor to fish out my phone. Tak sampai few seconds 2 men on a bike smashed my window and stold my handbag. Coz my hand was on my handbag, I got some minor cuts on my left hand.

Rasa kecewa tidak terkata. I've always been a careful person. Handbag tak pernah letak atas passenger seat but that fateful day... entahlah, dah nasib badan.

sedih
trauma
kesal

rasa seperti tiada identiti. my phones, my (new) camera, wallet with gambar muda arwah Baba all gone. i only had 7 bucks in my wallet at that time but you know the hassle of losing all your identification cards and ATM/credit cards kan?

besar sungguh dugaan mengandung kali ini. but someone said, at least you have a story to tell your baby #2 bila dia besar nanti. that's true. sad, but true.

I still have to pass by the road everysingleworkingday. I cant turn back time, but I cant stop from the memory coming back either. *sigh*

Esok I'm still on MC.

Semoga 2011 will be a better year for me.

this view

Like I don't say this enough, December adalah bulan stress for me. People go for their extended holidays or plan parties in December, while I have to work extra hard pada bulan ini. That's why many little things tend to annoy me easily.

 

Perhaps I should tell my boss that I want to change portfolio next year. Er, maybe not.

 

Anyway, tak sabar nak pindah rumah!

 

p/s: I didn't take this picture, my husband did during his recent trip to Tokyo. I like looking at it because it has a calming effect on me. Perhaps I should move to Tokyo...

boots1

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Originally uploaded by natinski

My kid is out for a haircut (in his boots). I decided not to go so that I can catch up with work (yeah right) and the family demands that his hair should be cut shorter. My heart couldn't take it. Please don't cut my baby's hair!

Mengada sungguh. Bukannya rambut tu tak boleh tumbuh balik. He's not Samson anyway, he'll still be bouncing of the walls kalau berambut pendek. Heheh.

pasta zanmai

Obligatory food post!

Pasta Zanmai at Midvalley. Their potato stuff is good (as pictured) but pasta-japanese-fusion type of thing doesn't really work for me.

The ice-cream crepe sucked (dalam menu je nampak cantik) and they refused my request to change it to chocolate from vanilla.

I didn't even try the green tea puff because i hate green tea and the puff wasn't that soft. Oh well.

 

Gambar lama ni actually. Had dinner there to celebrate an ex-colleague who decided to join company lain dengan alasan environment syarikat baru lebih Islamik. Hmm been there done that, Islamik or not, we are still human. Pasti ada individu and fahaman peribadi / politik syarikat yang begitu jelik untuk ditangani. All I can do is wish him good luck.

 

December is certainly a bad month for me. The Company's yearly award submission is due and my deadline is on the 16th. Satu jack-shit pun tak siap lagi. And of course, the management expects to win! Kalau tak menang, maka kuranglah bonus tahun hadapan. Pressure pressure.

 

Habis submit award on the 16th nanti, I will then look forward to moving to a new place on the 20th. Can't wait.

 

For now I'm just gonna curse silently for my ant trails of bad luck and misunderstandings. I'm sorry I've been an ugly person inside and out. Semoga tahun 1432 will bring better luck and less tears for me. Except masa nak beranak. Azza azza fighting!

SFF

Pergi window-shopping kat SSF pun nak kena ada blog entry ke?

Of course.

It's a wonderful place for you and me to build our dreams.

Make mental notes on what to purchase, simpan dalam kocek.

test shot

I don't know how to use my new camera. Help!

 

*goes back to doing my KPI*

 

[tapi tangan gatal nak test kamera]

2011 reso

It remains blank.