Finding it harder and harder to translate what's in my head into paper (or digital space what-have-yous). I suppose back in the glorious d-land days I was able to sit for hours and write and put my heart and soul into it. Merely excuses for us mortals to negate ourselves. Maybe I should just update with one-liners (at least once a day) would do.

 

I'm sitting here alone at the office (the rest of the team is either out for meetings or trainings, save for the quiet new writer -- who is unfortunately is as silent as the walls surrounding us) and trying, trying to write. There are a few items due at the office, but the sounds of the rich interns are very distracting (ha! another excuse! down with my kpi and promotion!). the kids here are all rich - they are either daughters or sons of shareholders or CIOs - and I am envious to see them strutting around the office in their Miu Miu handbags and Tod's loafers. My pay is probably the same cost as their handbag! That aside, i had a boring lunch (dare I say, smartphones should be banned during meals) and post-lunch, I fell into a dreamless sleep. 

 

Saw Incredibly Close and Extremely Loud last night. Good movie, only because the boy can really act and he made me cry. He made me cry because he said 'I love you' to his mother (albeit from outside the door) - something that I long to hear from my eldest son. God, he's only 3 for chrissake! The time will come soon enough!

 

You'd thought I started bawling because the child lost his father in Sept 11. The familiarity of not getting closure after losing a father when you least expected it would have struck a chord with me but somehow I wasn't crying because of that. Does this means I no longer miss my father?

 

I still miss him, I do. It's just that I've stopped mourning and starting living vicarously through his memories. And I can't wait for my boys to grow so that I can tell stories about him.

 

Guess I'll just have to wait a little longer.

 

Adios for now. My bestfriend is back in KL, looking forward to see her tonight to hear stories about her travels to Turkey and London, or wherever she left heart recently. :)

[Seri's Star Kitchen with U-KISS] Bibim bap (비빔밥) - Rice Mixed with Vege...

Posting it here because you know eventually my husband will need to taste my Korean cooking.
*evil laugh*

The camera is okay (for a second I wanted to type the camera with a capital C, because it is after all my main camera right now, like it's godlike or something). Someone messed with the af/ae lock and the amateur in me went all panicky for a completely useless reason. -_-

Attended a wedding today and had the best chicken kuzi. Bumped into my uncle and in my head I screamed "give me back my land!" a la Pocahontas. Will see him again this weekend. Pray to the god Apotamkin that I won't chop his head off.

(I am just kiddin') but to severe blood ties would be the best option right now.

out of focus

Something is wrong with my GF1 lens. Look at the picture! It's out of focus! And I don't know how to fix it! Hopefully it's just some settings problem (I really shouldn't let anyone touch it) and will try to get it fixed soon.

 

Some stuff to update:

1. Raya was fun! I was thinking I might not be able to face Raya this year considering the closer we get to 1 Syawal, the more I keep thinking about losing Danial, about losing Baba and Queen Mother, losing the KB house etc. But I figured the departed would want to see me happy, the kids and fam need to be happy -- what's gone is gone, we can only move ahead. Some of my colleagues took the trouble to visit on the 1st Raya and also I was surprised my bihun goreng was a hit among R's friends during an impromptu open house recently.
2. My Mama is still bedridden, but I'm happy that at least she can speak now. Only a few words at one time, but that's already a big improvement.
3. There is an opening at the dream office, but again, I am a bit hesitant to leave. We'll see how it goes. I'll make the move when I'm ready to move, perhaps just not right now.
4. Heading back to KB next weekend. Taking the kids to the bea-each, can't believe the boys have never seen the beach!

Hmm that is all.

1 Syawal

Have a good one. 

Julie & Julia

Question generated by www.plinky.com


What's your favorite movie adapted from a book?
Oh this is easy. Julie & Julia of course! But also The Devil Wears Prada. :)

Bitterballen redux

Had to search my own blog for the bitterballen nasi recipe. A tedious recipe but worth the hassle. Having my sister and her big family over for the buka puasa this weekend. Hope they'll like it.

Bitterballen nasi