Finding it harder and harder to translate what's in my head into paper (or digital space what-have-yous). I suppose back in the glorious d-land days I was able to sit for hours and write and put my heart and soul into it. Merely excuses for us mortals to negate ourselves. Maybe I should just update with one-liners (at least once a day) would do.
I'm sitting here alone at the office (the rest of the team is either out for meetings or trainings, save for the quiet new writer -- who is unfortunately is as silent as the walls surrounding us) and trying, trying to write. There are a few items due at the office, but the sounds of the rich interns are very distracting (ha! another excuse! down with my kpi and promotion!). the kids here are all rich - they are either daughters or sons of shareholders or CIOs - and I am envious to see them strutting around the office in their Miu Miu handbags and Tod's loafers. My pay is probably the same cost as their handbag! That aside, i had a boring lunch (dare I say, smartphones should be banned during meals) and post-lunch, I fell into a dreamless sleep.
Saw Incredibly Close and Extremely Loud last night. Good movie, only because the boy can really act and he made me cry. He made me cry because he said 'I love you' to his mother (albeit from outside the door) - something that I long to hear from my eldest son. God, he's only 3 for chrissake! The time will come soon enough!
You'd thought I started bawling because the child lost his father in Sept 11. The familiarity of not getting closure after losing a father when you least expected it would have struck a chord with me but somehow I wasn't crying because of that. Does this means I no longer miss my father?
I still miss him, I do. It's just that I've stopped mourning and starting living vicarously through his memories. And I can't wait for my boys to grow so that I can tell stories about him.
Guess I'll just have to wait a little longer.
Adios for now. My bestfriend is back in KL, looking forward to see her tonight to hear stories about her travels to Turkey and London, or wherever she left heart recently. :)
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