+_+

I'm no superhero.

But I feel better.

 

-_-

The thing is, there's nothing I could do to save him.

 

My CEO's driver had a stroke at our tower lobby yesterday and I was the unlucky person to be there minutes after dia jatuh. It was frustrating not being able to help him, I wasn't loud enough to scream at the security guards to get help from the in-house doctor, I wasn't strong enough to transport him to the hospital instead of waiting terpinga-pinga with the rest for the ambulance, for the damn doctor, for some miracle to happen. I wanted so much to help but there were too many people there already thinking they know what they're doing. Just because he was unconscious does not mean things are okay dammit!!!

 

When the doctor came, I thought things will be okay after all. I went upstairs, cried, and minutes later my colleague came in and I saw his face dropped and he just sat there speechless.

 

We lost our guy at the lobby.

 

I don't know why it made me so sad, I guess the shock of losing a father came back and it made me realize how fragile life is. I want to write more here but I'm still in shock. I'm sad, I'm angry, I want to be left alone. I don't need any additional drama.

 

RIP Ganesan. You will be missed.

 

 

Quarter day di Hospital Selayang semalam.

So I begin my latest read - Dr Zhivago!

So I begin my latest read - Dr Zhivago!
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I'm on a week-long annual leave. No plans in particular, just chillin' at home with the family (and pray that office tak call - tough luck!). In other words, GUA TAKDE DUIT. But staying at home is what I anticipate every weekend so to be able to be at home for the entire week! wow, sangat best. My sleep cycle is all screwed up though.

I am supposed to start feeding my 6 months old solid makanan this week but belum lagi. Fruits puree from babyambrosia.com ada 3 jenis dalam freezer. Mungkin esok.

Cerita tentang Pil ASI juga belum berakhir. Maybe I'll write about it later. Off to bed now. Tomorrow gotta take my mom to the hospital kerajaan for her nephro medical review. if the doctor speaks to me in bahasa medik i am so gonna write to the newspapers!

Oh, my nephew Danial starts his radiotheraphy tomorrow. Another round of battle for life. Go forth, Dan, don't give up.

hargailah zoo kita!

Drugs in the mail

So semalam I received the Pil ASI in the mail. Ordered it from a badly-designed website, an online store that sells babymama stuff. I am at my wit's end here, trying to get my milk supply up again so I thought okay, let's try Pil ASI. See if it works.

 

So the pills arrived in a yellow envelope. Just the pills, takde sarung (like the one I saw online) nor instructions on how to take it. If you recieved unmarked pills in your envelope, would YOU eat it? HELL FREAKING NO (unless you're mat stone hee hee).

 

I'm sending them back and see if the seller is courteous enough to help me get a refund or resend a proper package because hell I (we all do) deserve a better service than this.

 

No, wait, that's too ambitious. I'll email the seller first. See what she has to say. Tak suka lah peniaga macam ni. -_-

 

(too bad Tiny Tapir tak jual pil ASI)

bosan

Tired of waiting for people on your reading list to update? Hey why don't you update your own space!

 

Hmm malas. I am feeling (looking) like a hippo these days. Most days actually, especially when I'm in the office elevator because the mirrors in the 'vator makes everyone look fat, including that miss anorexic at level 11. So what did I do over the weekend? Nothing much. Played with my kid, chilled with my mom, watched (from afar) the husband main Farmville - his horse wouldn't shut up and caught up with reading.

 

Speaking of reading, that little kid of mine (yang belum dikenalkan kepada solid food) telah mengunyah bookmark kertas saya hingga tinggal separuh. Patutlah dia diam sahaja di dalam bilik. Korek-korek mulut dia, and found sedikit cebisan kertas melekat di lelangitnya. Good job kid! Kalau kamu tidak menjadi seorang bersarjana tinggi, tak tahulah ibu.

 

I wanted to cook over the weekend but got lazy. When I say lazy, that means I'm just too lazy to go downstairs to get cooking stuff sebab bahan tak cukup. But I did make daging telur masak sos type of thing - sorry lupa nak snap photo. Ini resipi-nya:

3 telur ayam

1 burger daging (dicincang halus)

1 tomato dipotong dadu

(goreng those 3 items together)

 

Untuk sos: 3 sudu tomato & cili sos; 2 sudu sos tiram; 3 biji bawang merah & 1 bawang putih (dihiris halus); gula & garam secukupnya. Masak them all together, dan bila siap, tuang atas telur-daging-tomato. Wallah! Sedap dimakan. But of course, I didn't decide on the sukatan gula and garam. Masih tidak pandai. In other words I don't want to be blamed if masakan kurang gula atau garam! Mwahaha.

Bilakah Raya mahu habis

I've been busy. Hopefully after this 'Raya sebulan' crap is over we can all get our lives back i.e. duduk di rumah diam-diam and tidur. Can't wait!

an hour later

(I gave the chicken cake away)

 

p/s: My office has the lousiest lighting.

Bean cake from Japan

Halalan-tayyiban kah benda kek berupa ayam ini? My boss bought it for the team in Japan. Said it's made of beans.

Sinful chicken strips

This will be the death of me! Chicken strips fried in batter and lots of lemak ayam. I eat this everyday! -_-

domestik disaster

(not my house, but I would like a bird house in my house)

 

While I may not be a domestic goddess, I love my washing machine. The fact that I only get to see my washing machine over the weekend breaks my heart and washing your clothes using other people's machine is no fun.  Bunyi macam excuse taknak basuh baju ke? I hope not. But ah, the joy of putting the clothes in the machine, masukkan sabun pencuci/softener and listening to the machine sing (saya pakai LG) and let it air dry for half an hour – sudah cukup menenangkan fikiran saya. I love melipat baju too.

 

These days I find myself studying the Rasa magazine (curi kakak saya punya), making mental notes on what to try and what to ignore. But rasanya this Raya month dapur hanya berasap untuk masak air sahaja lah yes? Perhaps I should imitate Julie Powell, pick a culinary book, try each recipes and blog about it. Hmm not likely. I would like to feed my husband with my own 'air tangan' yes, and I shall achieve it one day! ;p

 

This pointless entry is brought to you by projek tergendala di office and a handful of antibiotics. Thank you.

My arwah father always taught me to fight the maladies on my own first. Kalau sakit, find a home remedy – then opt for whatever medicines available at home and if everything fails, baru visit the doctor. First it's the sore throat, then the flu, then the batuk. No temperature though, and thank God no one in the small family is infected. The kid and the bapak kid are both doing fine thank God!

 

The house is in a complete mess, didn't have the energy to clean-up or find the kid's kasut Raya Nike & Anpanman yang sampai ke sudah tidak dijumpai! My post-epidural brain is still cloudy, for the life of me I can't remember where they are. Pressure pressure.

 

I have a headache now.

Back in KL

I think the best part of beraya di kampung adalah membiarkan anak tidak berbaju. Baru-lah rawk!

Last meal last Ramadan

Ayam percik, ikan percik, perut ayam percik, kerabu perut ayam, solok lada, lala, hati goreng, daging masak kicap, sira pisang... Puas hati!

And sekarang KB sedang berdentam-dentum bunyi mercun sejak pukul 8 lagi. I'm waiting for R to come home with chicken chop Restoran Sun Too, a restaurant yang telah dikunjungi sejak kecil lagi. Rasa chicken chop-nya tetap sama sejak dulu.

This evening I introduced Rumi to Mek, si tukang gunting rambut Tionghua yang potong rambut aku sejak kecil lagi. Perhaps lepas ini dia akan potong rambut my kid pulak.

Speaking of kids, parents yang ajar their kids to cut queue di cashier are superbad parents. Shame on you. Padan muka anak korang kena marah dengan aku. I don't care if your kids are cute dengan mata terkebil-kebil tu but please teach them some manners. Thank you.

Selamat Hari Raya everyone.

Spotted on TV:

Sorry, grammar wasn't my best subject in school.

Translation: Maaf, NENEK bukan subjek terbaik saya di sekolah.

I'M NOT KIDDING! WTF?!?

Menu for today!

Menu for today!
Originally uploaded by natinski

Man, that was one sinful-crazy buka puasa. Double lamb patty, tomato, double cheese, mushroom, telur mata, extra mayo, chili sauce, oregano & roti burger. Plus teh ais from mamak downstairs. And MILO kotak (dengan straw limited edition sensasi meletup!). Yum!

We're supposed to makan pizza Yellow Cab for supper but yes, are you kiddin' me?! I can barely open my eyes now. Mahu pengsan kekenyangan. :)

Satgi for sahur I wanna (attempt) buat nasi goreng planta. Wish me luck.

Pffth.

Syaitan ada di mana-mana time puasa ni jika tidak masakan rumah masih dirompak dan manusia tetap dibunuh. Tapi syaitan paling besar is syaitan yang tak berpuasa! At a photo shoot for our new ad this morning, wah selambanya adik-adik kita minum air dan merokok. Nasib baik model handsome saya berpuasa, jika tidak habis tunggang langgang set nanti. I am the client, I demand my model to be fasting! ;p

 

On the road last week, ketika sangkut di trafik jam, ada satu hamba Allah ni in the car next to me sedang merokok. Dalam kereta ada anaknya sekali yang berumur lebih 5 tahun. Look, it's bad enough that you tak puasa, but you tak puasa dan merokok depan anak you. Satu, you're being a bad example to your kid and second, you damn well know that bila you smoke depan anak you, that poor child is a second hand smoker dan perhaps dia akan mati dulu dari you! Sorrylah emo sikit. Tak boleh accept lah orang dewasa yang tak berpuasa ni.

 

I think every year mesti ada entry-slash-rant tentang orang tak berpuasa kan. :)

 

Have a good weekend. I am super exhausted this week.

Saya craving nak makan pasta di Avanti sekian terima kasih.

4 bulan

Today we will take proper pictures of Rumi-oh (I still can't decide on what to call him). Our boy is 4 months old!  We are so blessed to have him in our little family.

 

I am super excited to go back to KB for Raya this year. Maybe because we'll get to introduce the little yakuza to my relatives, especially to my ailing Queen Mother (it's her 10^th cicit I think) and my beloved godfather Uncle Isa (who still cries when he talks about his bestfriend, my arwah Baba). Mungkin tahun ni tak dapat sembahyang Raya sebab kena jaga baby but that's okay because I can still walk la dee da to the mosque with my kid and listen to the khutbah (and mengintai Tengku Mahkota oh-stop-it-Nate). 5 days in KB and I'm already listing down things to eat. Bukannya nak fikir pasal packing. Oh my, packing is gonna be chaotic. Our weekly trip back to our home pun sudah nampak macam mahu bercuti seminggu apatah lagi packing for 5 days!

mari memasak dengan chef tawar

Despite my ketidak-kegemaran memasak, saya gagahkan jua mencuba eksperimentasi di dapur dengan resipi-resipi yang dicopy-paste dari Internet. Nota:

Ø       Lepas ni tak masak ayam masak merah dah! Asyik tak jadi je

Ø       I love memasak sotong

Ø       Anything with santan or daging masih belum berani di cuba

Ø       My begedil rocks!

Ø       My bitterballen nasi menjadi, walaupun tawar

Ø       I don't like to cook main course, anything on the side I like (re: begedil or goreng2 campak2)

 

Di sini I would like to share the resep bitterballen nasi:

 

2 ulas bawang putih - dicincang

2 sudu makan tepung gandum

150 ml air

½ kiub ayam

3/4 sudu teh garam

¼ sudu teh serbuk lada sulah

300 gm nasi putih (ala belasah je lah 4 senduk nasi)

25 gm lobak merah - dipotong dadu dan direbus

25 gm sayur buncis (5 batang) - direbus dan dihiris halus

30 gm keju parut

2 sudu makan marjerin untuk menumis

Minyak untuk menggoreng

 

BAHAN SALUT:

1 biji telur

75 gm tepung goreng serbaguna

 

CARA-CARA:

1. Tumis bawang putih sehingga naik bau (tumis with marjerin not oil please!). Masukkan tepung gandum. Aduk cepat sehingga berketul².

2. Masukkan air sedikit demi sedikit sambil dikacau hingga licin.

3. Masukkan kiub ayam dan lada sulah. Kacau lagi.

4. Masukkan nasi, lobak merah, buncis dan keju. It will look like nasi goreng with extra kanji

5. Bentukkan bulat dan celupkan di dalam kocok telur & gulingkan di atas tepung goreng.. Lakukan sekali lagi.

6. Goreng sehingga kuning keemasan.

7. Makan! Cicah with sos cili jika dapat chef yang serba tawar macam saya. hehe

 

Sekian terima kasih. Weekend ni saya belum pasti nak cuba masak apa.