Tadi kan, like, Ustaz Z, singgah ke office ku (di mana saya kelam-kabut tutup aurat kerana minggu lepas sudah kena sound sama ustaz) dengan anak bongsunya. Hensem macam ayahnya. Pemalu, tidak macam ayahnya. Ustaz Z berkata kepada anaknya sambil menarik tangan anaknya kepada aku - "Salam dengan auntie cun, Anas". Huhu. Berbunga sekejap hati Cik Nate.

(yes i have a massive crush on my ustaz. i have no shame! All these akidah classes are not helping my moral standings thanks)

We're all gonna burn in hell kerana Pak Salleh.




Rebiu: Aku dengar ada penyair soleh di sini by SDN.

Alamak Hujan is playing at The Laundry tonight!!
(eh betul ke myspace dia orang ni)
(tapi aku ada date malam ni dengan si dia dari Djakarta)



p/s: Aku suka lagu 'Pagi yang Gelap'. The clouds nampak macam popcorns pagi ini. Semalam pun macam tu juga. Weird.

Fete de la Musique @ Alliance Francaise, 24th June 2007.

















Semua orang malas nak kerja ini hari. Increment sudah masuk, ada orang muka masam mencuka (including my boss huhu). I think my increment is ok. Alhamdulillah.

p/s: We saw Sharifah Amani @ AF. She is hawt with the bald head. Note to self: Lain kali nak mengurat Reza Salleh, jangan biarkan dia terkontang-kanting. Sorry Reza, I got distracted. Will take your photo next time around!

Jaja, if you ask me apa yang kita telah pelajari di tazkirah jumaat hari ini (pandainya ustazah buat ceramah supaya kami tak berlari ke warehouse sale loreal/maybelline waktu lunch time) hanya satu sahajalah yang sempat disalin:
"Jangan jadi sahabat seperti bulan gerhana yang muncul hanya sekali-sekala".
I don't know what ustazah was going on about for the rest of the ceramah. The usual anecdotes-lah tentang menjadi wanita muslimah etc.
*yawnYAWNyawn*

malas nak updet. balik ke kl, kerja tetap menimbun. as if everybody is waiting for me to come back. but that's not a big deal. i dont like ppl doing my work anyway. sejak balik dari kuching ni rasa macam blur sikit lah. maybe because i'm not feeling well. hopefully things will go back to normal when i get my bearings back in a couple of days. i miss my friends. let's hang out and waste money on minuman keras! just kiddin' lah.

staring at the picture, i wish my life boleh diundur. tak perlu banyak, sedikit cukuplah.

Greetings from Kuching!

Ex-bf masa kolej nak datang melawat (dia nak bagi ikan terubuk masin).
Aku kata - "Jangan jadi Tanggang".

Will be back Sunday.

suatu hari di pulau ketam:

"so natasya, ayah awak selalu fishing kat mana?"
"di US..."

so you can imagine lah why i was a bit reluctant to answer that question. nanti orang kata apa pula. but my dad was an avid angler back then. i remember sometimes we would head out in the freezing winter to go fishing. walaupun air sungai DeKalb semakin membeku, tapi dapat juga ikan! i'm just not sure why he stopped fishing altogether bila sudah pulang ke tanahair.

fishing trip to pulau ketam was fun. banyak juga ikan-ikan (kecil huhu) yang berjaya ditangkap. i slept most of the time sebab kena bangun 430 pagi. dan lelaki-lelaki pengail semua taknak pegang ikan so i was the tukang-cabut-mata-kail-dari-ikan. kih kih. but i'd definitely go there again.

ayat tipikal: will upload the photos later. it's been a busy month for me.

Pencinta Wanita versi Kelantan

Ho la terimo kasih banyok sebhak youtube ni lah opismate2 ambo dok gelok kak ambo sebhak ambo orghe kelate!

Tangan sudah mula seram sejuk. Sesejuk seperti going on a 1st date with the guy you like. No wait, i’m never nervous on a first date. Sejuk seperti menunggu nama dipanggil untuk ditemuduga. Or something like that. My point is, tangan ini sudah mula membeku kerana on the 5th of June my CEO yang tidak berbahasa Melayu itu mahu lihat 2 (dua / dos / yee / two) teks ucapannya yang ditulis oleh si penulis korporat ini yang juga masih terkial-kial menulis teks ucapan berbahasa Melayu. Ya ampun, dah hampir 2 tahun aku menjadi penulis teks ucapannya. Dah tak tahu nak goreng apa dah. Cut-and-paste, potong-dan-tampal teks2 ucapan sendiri sambil menceduk teks-teks orang lain (oops sori), masukkan peribahasa Melayu (untuk buat CEO / Chairman nampak seperti mereka menghargai budaya Melayu), masukkan ayat2 suci al-Quran (untuk buat CEO / Chairman nampak seperti mereka alim) semuanya telah kulakukan. Mati akal dah ni!

Kalau esok kedengaran lagu-lagu hardcore hip-hop from Cik Nate’s cubicle, faham2lah eh. Kepala tengah berserabut. Unless if i’m playing lagu-lagu jiwang Tompi then that’s a different story... ;)

mimpi. mencuri fonsel Zed Zaidi dan tertangkap lantas dikejar sekumpulan Oompa Loompa yang berparang. akhirnya dibuang daerah dan terkapai-kapai mencari bantuan, seseorang atau sesiapa yang sudi menyelamatkan diri ini.

realitas. dua minggu lalu. memandu di MRR2 lantas memotong sebuah perdana hitam. "Maaaaa!", jerit aku pada ibu. "Zed Zaidi!!!" Si ibu yang mata coklatnya masih belum sembuh dari pembedahan bertanya "betul ke? hensem tak". Dia hensem. Sehensem wajahnya ketika menjatuhkan talak terhadap Zeti. Namun, jelas dia tergolong di dalam coccoon yang terlalu teruja apabila dipandang. aku memotong keretanya sekali lagi. jeling sajalah. cukup.

sembilu kasih semakin intense. walaupun kadang kala tertidur (to my mother's dismay - because this is the only quality time i have for her these days - maaf ma! but you know-lah my weekends are crazy these days). Jumaat lalu aku dicubit Mama, "Bangun, dia orang dah bercerai. zety had a miscarriage". Haaaa!?! How can la be like that! Habis tu! Perempuan gediks yang putus tunang itu bersorak kegembiraan lah! Maka makin cerah lah peluangnya untuk meng-SHITWHATISTHEWORD fendi/zed zaidi!!

sometimes i say to myself, i watch too much tv. i could be right.

di endau

ungkapan laut di langit hitam
bintang dilihat dalam lautan
sangkutnya jala berukir hati
bagaikan cinta ku harap disisi
jaringan bibir bagaikan sesikat
nyiur dihanyut seimbas ombak
pohon ibu dilepas bayu
bagaikan hati menggisir batu
disinilah cinta menyerang aku
disinilah aku diserang kamu

Jalan Sesama (Indonesian version of Sesame Street) is so kiyoot! So when are we gonna get our own version eh?

Anyway, as expected, sudah ada orang membalas surat yang dilayang oleh wanita di Wellington itu semalam. 3 replies! Belum baca sepenuhnya lagi. Tengah asyik baca tentang kenaikan pencen. Sebentar lagi nak call my mother and tease her about the pay increase hee hee.

Gunkz - Cantik vidclip

I knowww, I'm 30 but I'm still a big fan of hip-hop. This is cool, sounds like Iwa K though.

Oh my God, you're kiddin right? Somebody actually sent a letter to Utusan Malaysia (sila rujuk pada suratkhabar tersebut ini hari) bertajuk:

Lelaki Melayu bermasalah?

*cringe*

Pada pendapat saya topik sebegini sesuai untuk suapan pembaca blogs sahaja tapi to actually send the letter to a local daily is is is ... so BITTER. Damn pei la weh!

Some excerpts: (i had to type this myself ok sbb cant find the online version and demi tidak menghampakan pembaca2 di sini (oh please) dan juga Cik Nate terpaksa menutup tajuk surat itu sbb nanti opismate buat spekulasi macam2 ttg my racial preference ho ho)

"Saya tidak faham mengapa lelaki Melayu mesti berkelakuan begitu buruk sekali."

"Golongan wanita tidak kira daripada bangsa apa pun, lebih selamat berada di kalangan lelaki Inggeris daripada bersama lelaki Melayu."

"Mereka perlu diajar menghormati wanita."

"Saya hendak berterus-terang; saya sudah bosan dengan sikap lelaki Melayu yang terus-terusan menimbulkan masalah dan sentiasa juga enggan mengaku itu ialah masalah mereka."

"Barangkali saya bersikap terlalu cauvinis wanita. Tetapi saya percaya cauvinis wanita tidak akan wujud jika puncanya tidak ada."

Ho ho Ho. Sungguh lantang wanita ini.

I have nothing to say. I'm looking forward to read the feedbacks/brickbats from disgruntled men or women yang bakal mengangkat wanita ini sebagai suara glokal mereka. *giggles sambil memandang sinis pada ofismate lelaki Melayu yang muka semakin merah apabila membaca warkah tersebut*

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Originally uploaded by natinski.

Setelah penat bermain kejar-kejaran with my niece - Ayn terus ke tingkat atas untuk mengadu-domba kepada neneknya i.e. my mother:

Ayn: [undecipherable ramblings] Makcik kejar Ayn, bla bla bla
Mom: Makcik nak apa?
Ayn: MAKCIK NAK KAHWIN.

Cik Nate: .............

Hati ayahnya BERBUNGA RIA kerana puteranya seorang yang berilmu malah sentiasa dahagakan ilmu.
*falls asleep*

I'm at page 2 of Siddhartha. I know I can finish this, i just need to read it out loud in my head.

p/s: Congratulations to my sister Audra for winning the Anugerah Guru Cemerlang something-something award!

Kepala ni rasa macam nak meletups. how do men ppl manage to piss me off for 2 day straight?
I'd like to think that i'm the type of person who can handle anger graciously. i hate confrontations and if i feel that i dont need to explain/defend myself when i know i dont need to, then i'll just shut up. i mean seriously, you can look at me, and you can judge me for being the person that i am NOT. do you think i care? i'm so used to being stared at. sejak kecik lagi. no big deal man.

tapi ada jantan keparat sekor ni pinjam my thumbdrive(s) and i want them back! malasnya aku nak call dia and remind him over and over again that harta orang lain jangan disimpan lama2 nanti bila mati masuk neraka and all that, let alone nak tengok muka dia! Isk geram. Sakit kepala ni tau. Ok fine, i got the thumbdrives for free but still, they're mine!

Ok Cik Nate, think happy thoughts:



Er, that's my niece. Ada one day i went to her house and she cant stop saying "Makcik dah kahwin ke belum // Makcik bila nak kahwin" dalam segala intonasi berjuta-juta kali. Heh. I thought that was amusing. Serious! Makcik tak kisah kalau anak2 buah makcik semua tak sabar nak pakai baju flowergirls mereka. Iskhhh.

OK next happy thought.

Last Friday ketika cuba masuk ke sebuah kelab for their free-flow of margarita, the bouncer mintak check IC *roll eyes*. So i showed him my IC-lah. And he was like "woooooooooah". I just senyum jelah hor, and said "YES, I'M 30". Rupa-rupanya tahun ni adalagi ada orang nak check IC aku. Tsk.

Ok one more happy thought for the road. This is good, My anger is slowly surut.

I have a copy of my all-time favorite book Siddharta by Hermann Hesse in Bahasa Melayu!?! wtf . Tak sabar rasanya nak baca. Maybe i'll take a peek tonight. Tapi bila baca buku ni mesti nak letak the english version next to it kan? Just to compare. Anal.

DJ Altimet aku sayang sama kamu! (ye ye DJ Fuzz kamu juga)

>> My English rant space is down. So tumpang sini sekejap.

“I’m depressed!”
Most of the time it will fall to deaf ears because my friends hear that all the time but this week alone I’ve had 3 friends shouting back at me “Nate, you’re not depressed!”. Ok fine, let’s just call it temporary insanity then. Or a bad funk that I occasionally have when things are not going my way. Or maybe I’m just getting depression and boredom all mixed up. Poo.

Hatta, who left yesterday morning for Bali (for 10 days – damn I wish I was a surfer with no commitments like him) gave me a chaste kiss on the forehead before departing and looked straight into my teary eyes and said “do something ok”.

But I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I’m okay, most of the time I’m not ok. I hate public holidays because I never make plans. I have great friends but sometimes I feel like I’m burdening them with the weight of the world. I never tell my family anything because I’m a big girl who always pulls her shit together. I stayed at home to read and vegetate yesterday. It felt ok because a good book is always a good company. I went out for some groceries at the shopping mall nearby and on my way home I was at a red light, and ohmygod, I didn’t know how I got there. How did my synapse managed to bypass my clouded mind and tell my foot to stop at a red light and not crash into the car in front of mine? While watching tv with Hatta the night before he said “you’re watching tv but your mind is somewhere else”. But where has my mind wandered?

Fin.

P/s: Dear Blake, please bring blonde back. You give Bon Jovi a baaaad name. A squat revelation: Mr Tumnus is actually James McAvoy. I had no idea! I love my !E tv.