Life would be better if I could get coffee in my system!

This is totally random, because I am falling asleep at work:

 

Me: We're gonna name our baby IMAN ADALAH. You know, like that song "Iman adalah... Mutiaraaaaaa..." HEHE.

Sis: Ha! Ha! You must be joking dear! But I love Iman Rasul! Mcm dlm drama 'Chinta'.

Me: NoooOoOoOo you're not the only one person yang suggest nama tu

Sis: Ha! Ha! *laughrollroll*

 

Sometimes when we're at our weekend home, I hear suara some boys yang sayup-sayup memanggil nama Danial. It's not my imagination - it's just the boys' way of calling Danial to hang out with them but they're too terrified to knock on our door (takut I marah and won't allow Danial to go out and see them). I didn't have the heart to tell them that Danial is gone.

 

Let them call Danial for a while, I miss those voices calling my arwah nephew's name.

He was well loved by everyone.

Since my husband calls me a mini-hoarder, I decided to clear some of my junks last weekend. Saya berjaya buang:

• 5 pair of shoes
• Beg botol yang kalau diberi pada orang lain, orang lain juga tidak sanggup pakai
• Some magazines
• A handbag usang

Er that's about it I think. It's not easy to part with your junk okay! But whether I like it or not I have to start sorting my stuff – we're moving to a new place in December, gotta make sure I have minimum junk as possible. Sapa-sapa berangan nak further studies or study English Literature please email me if you want some ancient notes and bahan rujukan. Oh I also managed to donate a big paperbag of baju kurung. Let's face it, I'm never gonna be thin like I was 10 years ago. Maybe I will, but not in the near future kot.

 

This weekend, I want to clear baju-baju disko! My nieces semua pakai tudung (oops) so I'll probably bring them to the office and see if any of my colleagues want them.

 

OK this entry is dumb. Have a good weekend.

I find it so hard to take pictures of my own kid (which explains why his photos are mostly snapshots of his feet, hair or fingers). Gambar anak2 orang lain okay pulak. Maybe my boy is camera shy? Anyways, it doesn't matter.

Should I blame my camera? Is it time to splurge on a new camera where I'll end up having another love-hate-love relationship with? But recently I learned a valuable lesson from a mummy photog in Australia. She said the best camera that one can have is the one that you have right now. Tak kisahlah kamera itu mahal atau murah. Just make full use of it. Besides, who's to judge whether you are a good photographer or not eh? It's your life, YOU are the photographer of YOUR life. (OK fine, saya suka criticize orang2 yang ambik gambar pakai camera mahal tapi their pictures takde artistic value hehe peace). My point is, rajin-rajin lah pakai camera tu.

I currently don't have a dream camera right now. Mungkin sebab tiada bajet. I'm happy with my point-shoot-cameras: my 2nd hand Lumix cikai and Ixus 80 (both have their own flaws); BB Curve 8900 (I swear I take better pictures with my phone) and my pink Vivitar kamera filem.

Apsal tiba2 bercerita tentang kamera ni? I don't know, maybe because today saya sedar saya sudah malas ambik gambar. I shouldn't. I can't rely on my memory forever.

Can't sleep again last night. I sat up straight, stared at the wall (a picture of my husband at age 8 in a framed newspaper clipping hangs neatly on our temporary bedroom) and my mind was blank. Most nights the neurons in my brain conjures a tiny memory of Danial in my sleep and I will wake up, not wanting for it to continue further, and I'm not ready to continue sleeping either. Normal kah ini?

 

I normally go back to sleep an hour or 2 later, when my eyelids are just too tired to keep up with my stubborrness.

 

Anyway, I'm off to co-emcee the Company's open house event this evening. Kena berbahasa Inggeris. Rasa janggal pula nak kena cakap English at a Melayu-esque event. Blek.

Our Danial

Pada tanggal 1 Syawal yang lalu kami telah memulangkan our 17-year old nephew Syafiq Danial kepada Yang Maha Esa. Berakhir sudah deritanya, dan bermulalah hidup kami tanpa Danial who brought so much joy to our lives.

 

I didn't want to post this entry because I don't think I have the strength to do it. But I wanted to share with everyone my first photo with him, a picture that one of my nieces found in my grandmother's house after we buried him. Terubat sedikit remuk di hati ini. I miss him so much, and my family and some friends would understand why I am most affected by this. He was like a son to me.

 

I haven't been able to grief properly – which I think is a good thing, otherwise by now I would have lost my mind. But sometimes I allow myself some moment of weakness – a good cry while driving home from work or a random call to any friend who is unlucky enough to hear my silent cry on the phone. I just needed to cry.

 

Sorry, wish I can write a longer post. Terlalu rindu pada Danial, but he's in a better place now and we all need to move on and live through our wonderful memories with him. Al-Fatihah.

Our Julie

Anak dara* saya, who is due on my birthday next year.

 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri everyone.

 

* Of course I'm not sure if it's gonna be a girl or not, but I am conspiring with the Universe to grant me a baby girl. :)

lips don't lie

Okay so since I have signed a "no-show-of-my-kid-Rumi's-face" clause on this blog, I'll just show you his lips je lah. My poor baby. Everytime dia ketap bibir dia, half of me dies because OMG CAN YOU PLEASE NOT DO THAT TO YOUR LIPS OTHERWISE IT WILL NEVER HEAL. Took him to the paed semalam (for a 3^rd opinion – yes opinion seorang doctor klinik dan seorang doctor ER tidak cukup) and doc said no need to worry much, it'll heal. Best thing I've heard so far – IT'LL HEAL.

 

Semalam he was jumping around on the bed and started munching on a pillow and I screamed "Rumi, don't do that and close your mouth!!!" and suddenly he stopped moving and closed his mouth. Oh wow, my kid understands adult language! Terasa seperti epik pass kejap (epik pass = phrase bertentangan dengan epic fail, geddit geddit?).

 

It's fun being a mom. I hope he knows I try very hard to be a good nonsensical mom.

 

no monday blues!

Oh hey it's been awhile. Plenty of stuff to update - but I've been busy (what else is new).

 

Anyway, last Friday I had to work late at midvalley - ada some clients dinner thing. Left midvalley, took the wrong route, ended up in Taman Desa or something, couldn't find Jalan Klang Lama and started bawling my eyes out. Called the husband and a colleague and cried cried cried "I'm l-l-lost, I don't know where I am". I completely panicked. Couldn't breathe, couldn't think straight.

 

Minutes later I went back to the road I took and alas, ada police roadblock. Abang polis sengih sahaja when I said I'm lost and couldn't find OKR (it was only 5 minutes away).Don't know what's wrong with me. I acted like a wuss! Wait, I was a wuss that night. -_-

 

Anyway, my kid fell and cut his lower lip. Ini bukan sebarang cut but it's a deep gash with blood all over type of cut. I think he's okay now, just not sure when his lip will heal completely because the doctor decided not to stitch it (definitely not in time for the Cute Baby contest! heh just kidding).

 

So much drama for 2 days straight. Oh well, it can only make you stronger honey. Another thing that can make me stronger is when people menjaga tepi kain orang dan membuat cerita palsu about you. But that's okay because YOU'RE the one who's going to hell darling, not me.

 

Cheers!

coagulation

I normally hate it when I have to give up my weekend for work or any unplanned activities, but when the company said they are planning to do a CSR project, I couldn't say no. My previous jobs involved doing a lot of charity work and sejak dapat kerja desk job ni, I haven't been able to give back to society at all. So last weekend I took part in something Malaysian – melawat rumah orang tua yyay!

 

It was a tricky thing for me, sebab saya memang tak boleh tengok orang tua (because I'll never get to see my father grow old). I cry easily! And I miss my Queen Mother terribly.

 

Anyway, I thoroughly enjoyed my day at Rumah Seri Kenangan in Seremban. We danced, we sang, we spoke about life.

One nenek said I will die a bloodied death because I have a tahi lalat on my chest. Thanks Nenek! -_-

Another nenek, the one in green, is a lovely dancer and singer. I think she is blind, but she made me laugh.

The nenek on the purple cadar lamented on her life wasting away at the old folks' home but I told her to think of happy thoughts and butterflies.

At another dorm, I saw a lady sleeping on her side just like my Queen Mother. I left the dorm in a huff, with tears in my eyes.

 

There were no tearful goodbyes or empty promises about seeing each other again from me, because I think these wonderful people at the old folks' home have been living on empty promises for too long already. God bless them all.

 

Hujung minggu ni kita jadi orang Jepun pulak. Bon Odori this weekend yay!

 

* All photos taken with a D50. Lens mak tak ingat lens pakai lens mana. Haha fail. Kindly do not steal.

I really miss my grandmother.

Rindu.

My Queen Mother, Mok passed away on Monday. She was 84.

Growing up, I always thought she was immortal and we were doomed to live under her kuku besi spell for the rest of our lives. But years passed, my father passed on 8 years ago, and somehow Mok mellowed down.

My kid adores her and I find myself wanting to go back to KB more often, just to see Mok. I was no longer afraid of her, and every single day I pray that God will let her stay with us a little longer. 

I still can't believe she's gone. At least Mok is in a better place now.

Semoga Allah grant her the best place to rest.

to an end of a good week

The weekend is {almost} here and I'm really tired. Most days I have 4 arms, one tiny heart with a puny mind to get things done accurately and efficiently. To make things worse, this week I lost an extra limb, my (his) silly iPod of emo and K-pop music fighting for space to be heard.

I can't work without music.

I can't write without tunes.

To get through the days I hum to myself; I get my colleagues to sing or listen to whatever scarce tunes I have in my phone (try living with listening to female K-pop bands the whole week, it's enough to drive you to commit mental suicide, really).

 

Another half day to go. Artworks to approve, reports to write, bills to pay. Daebak.

kasih atuk

kasih atuk
Originally uploaded by natinski

we survived the scorching hot weather yesterday. wedding was alright, but i think these days when you go to a Malay wedding, there is something that we can't avoid:

wedding DJ from hell.

seriously just how much do ppl pay for this type of DJ? gotta hand it to them to play the crappiest rock kapak songs. the DJ siap pasang sound effect bunyi helicopter - to say that the bride & groom dah sampai. i thought that was hilarious.

Things to do do do

Yah yah the long weekend is here. My colleague said he wants to come to work tomorrow. "Dude aren't you supposed to pray to your God or something on Wesak Day?" I pray to my God every single day la, said him. Good answer. Harus hari-hari ingat pada Tuhan.

Stuff to do this 3-days break:
1. Catch up on my Korean drama fix. I also miss Daniel Henney. Yums.
2. Attend a wedding (ohhhh the weather better be good!)
3. Work on a magazine q&a that I've been delaying forever
4. Keep an eye on the Korean conflict - how will it affect the economy? (beats me, but if they start bombing each other it will affect my bonus)
5.Watch a movie with Sara C (the last movie I saw was New Moon!)
6. Complete the handmade Super Junior wooden jigsaw puzzle my good friend made for me. Handmade okay! Terharu.
7. Kemas rumah
8. Goreng ikan terubuk & figure out how to make a killa air asam
9. Finish the Yann Martel book so that I can prove to myself that yes, I can still read a book
10. Start cracking my head - what's a good 2nd anniversary gift? (email me kthanx)

Have a pest-free break.

Waiting

i'm waiting for my meeting to start. an evening meeting to discuss the discussables (this is not even a word), like how this job seems like a neverending journey to nowhere. will i ever reach the top? or am i just comfortable here, with this view.

I want candy!

Makan gula-gula Jepun sebab tak dapat jumpa orang Jepun.

Sent via BlackBerry from Maxis yo!

Spital

My mom masuk hospital today. Nothing serious, she needed more blood. "Jangan dia orang bagi darah drakula sudah," said my mom. Her sense of humor can be brutal at times, but kali ni I thought it was funny.

Rumi has it

My kid turned 1 few weeks back. Actually I have been planning a huge robo-themed party for him (been doing research for best robot parties) since early this year. But of course by the time May datang, a. I was broke b. I had no venue and I was looking at some mommies blogs and how they celebrated their kids' birthdays and got completely turned off and stopped reading mommies blogs altogether. Dramatik betul.

Actually, my kid turning 1 was the time to reflect on my 'report card'. Pasti banyak merah. I hate being a weekend mom. I nak anak I sentiasa handsome and smart but all I ever (secretly) teach him is
Korean phrases. Whenever he gets sick that is when I feel the lousiest, because I am at work writing about the economy when I should be home hugging him tight. Banyak sangat kekurangan yang perlu dibaiki.

But my kid had a nice birthday anyway. 3 separate cozy small celebrations - terima kasih semua. I think we'll have a proper birthday when he's old enough to map his life & choose whatever he wants - robots, cars or a full hip-hop party. All I know when he turns 3, I'm getting him his first turntable! \o/

I love you, kid. Let's rock the world.

Please excuse while i rant a little.

Venue: Nasi Padang joint, opposite Sogo.
Time: Lunch hour

It’s a small eating eatery, yes, banyak gila orang makan di sana. You dont want to line-up, it’s fine, just dont potong MY bloody queue. Got my nasi padang which cost RM8 (wow) and ate silently with the rest of my 1Malaysia team.

To be honest, when i eat, i hate it when ppl hover around my table expecting me to finish makan cepat2. yes, i understand, tempat itu packed, you want to eat, you want me to eat fast. But the least you could do is give me some breathing space perhaps?

Lepas makan, i was the first to basuh tangan. When i came back, an old makcik was already sitting at my spot. Dude! Gua tak habis minum lagi! Kejinya family dia for putting this frail lady at my spot.

Frail lady. Which means i tak boleh maki dia. Saya harus bersopan santun.
So what i did was glared at her, finished my drink, and hentak my glass ala drama Cowboy and stormed off.

Next time saya makan at a crowded place, I’m gonna take my own sweet time. Kthanxbai.

[photos from Japan. I like their manholes – okay that sounds so wrong}

Photo credit: youcanmakeiteasy.blogspot.com
Kehadapan suami saya, sepanjang permergian saya ke Cherating, janganlah dipotong rambut anak kita yang kini sudah hamper mencapai cult status rambut budak nakal yang ranggi seperti gambar yang tertera. Sekian terima kasih.

“Sushi di Jepun jauh beza dari sushi di Malaysia’” said R.
I’m not the biggest fan of sushi, actually I hate it but I was willing to give in another chance.

He was right. The sushi in Japan does taste better (like how nasi dagang taste better in Kelantan). In Yokohama, just a block away from my sister-in-law’s apartment ada sebuah sushi bar. I don’t know why, but everytime I step into the sushi bar I feel like I’m in some Japanese soap drama. Protagonist-nya adalah seorang master sushi chef who makes the freshest sushi (dan saya cuma the disoriented foreigner yang takut makan sushi). We went there a couple of times for late dinner and boy do I love my sushi! The third pic are my favorites and the sushi salmon bakar with cheese is also delicious. The unagi di Narita Airport juga enak dimakan.



I’m still not touching sushi here though. Udon is still not a favorite. I also tried the fast food there. Mos Burger’s Teriyaki Chicken burger amat sedap, begitu juga Prawn burger di Lotteria. Roti burger mereka begitu lembut sekali. Yum.

I have to confess, I went to Japan unprepared. I didn’t study the language, I only wanted to go to places that I hear about, I wanted to see the sakura blossoms, beli mini stationeries and fridge magnets. Done. 2 weeks went by like a magnificent dream and I can still feel the chilly wind on my face, the taste of unagi on my tongue, the warm smile by the Yokohama old folks.

I’m already plotting my next trip to Japan!

Sorry no travelogue-sort of entries, but will update with some highlights of my trips. My attention span is short, but my time for this space is even shorter.

(sorry kasut saya tak handsome, but they are the most comfortable darnest thing ever)

Think I'm gonna miss this place terribly.

Day 1 - Yokohama

Day 1 - Yokohama
Originally uploaded by natinski

Konnichiwa!

It's been raining the whole day here in Yokohama. Everybody is so stylish here, rasa macam nak pakai suit and trenchcoat sambil jalan2 berlenggang pegang payung. No plans for today, perhaps pergi ke Saty to buy some groceries.

I am terrified to speak Japanese. It's much easier to say "yo gi chong mal cho a yo" (translate: I like it here in Korean) than a simple "ko ko ga dai su ki des!" (translate: I like it here in Japanese).

Hmmm mengantuk. Mahu sambung tidur. Brrhh sejuk!

My husband says that I'm trying to kill him with Super Junior (SuJu). He's probably right, I'm still in my SuJu funk selepas their awesome concert last weekend.

But my husband, being the awesome and supportive man that he is, helped to download a SuJu movie for me (who's killing who now?). Dan kalau dia tak sporting, tentu dia tidak benarkan saya pergi ke konsert bersama Korean wife saya (fine, my good friend Mei Peng is Chinese and the only Korean thing she knows to say to me is "Saranghae!", which mean I LOVE YOU).

If there's one thing local artiste can learn from these boys is that you don't need to dance/sing beria-ria/terkinja-kinja sangat to be awesome. *cough Adam AF/Stacy AF cough*

Sekian terima kasih.

Rockin' the number 33

I turn 33 today.

Rindu pada arwah Baba. Perit.

Sweet indulgence

Rewarded self with something sweet after a hectic day at work today. Manis.

Last batch of Porto Romano

Ok last pics of my lunch at PR. Lunch untuk meraikan 2 of our assistant executives yang naik pangkat (yay more work for them!). Overall the food there is exceptionally good, and spacious too! Kita tak makan dessert di sana, because it's right next to Wendy's so we indulged in frosties and milk shakes instead.

 

Porto Romano is located sebelah Garden International School in Mont Kiara. There is also a branch in TTDI and KL. Sekian terima kasih.