Tuesday, April 21, 2009


I hate scene office drama Melayu and its stupid ABBA files. Bila ada scene pejabat sahaja, mesti ada berpuluh-puluh ABBA files. It's like the director has the same mindset, ooh ooh the more ABBA files on the table, the better! Baru nampak busy, korporat, realistik. Macam haram. I wonder di mana these people mendapat ide sebegini. Pejabat kerajaan kah? I don't know. I only have ABBA files on my table when I do my filing. Buat semak je letak banyak-banyak atas meja. I think that's why we have a SECRETARY? To keep the fucking ABBA files out of our sight! It's as bad as watching drama Melayu - scene di restoran - order air fresh orange. But that one is so 80-an already, you hardly see people order fresh orange on TV anymore. Sudah pupus scene sebegitu sebab sudah tak cool.

Anyway, saya minta maaf to my twitter friends for the false labor drama over the weekend. Tapi serious, gua memang rasa macam dah nak beranak masa tu ok! Next time live updates will come from the labor room itself okay, not when aku menahan kesakitan di Jaya Jusco or whatever.

I'll be 38 weeks pregnant on Thursday. Aku sudah bersedia melepaskan tanggungjawab kerja dan tumpukan perhatian kepada rumahtangga & motherhood. I suppose nobody will ever understand about my blind devotion towards work. So let's have it everybody's way, right this minute, aku sudah tidak mahu kerja for the next 2 months.

Hmmm...

Okay, okay, after esok okay, sebab saya nak brief colleagues saya tentang hal2 kerja that they have to take over. Thank you.

Peace out.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Friday madness

I hate Fridays. They're like Mondays, only meaner.

Kesian lil' Yakuza, tidak sempat berenang dengan ria hari ini. I was multi-tasking - mana nak layan ad agency, nak betulkan grammar orang, nak beat deadline sendiri, etc.

Sorry baby. Mari kita layan Paris Hilton's My New BFF okay. Like, this is the best reality show eva!

Note to self: Fix the damn blogger time stamp.


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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I am still alive! Dalam huru-hara nak meet 20th April deadline (deadline kerja, bukan deadline beranak) aku terpaksa mengalah dan minta MC. Flu, demam, lemah badan segala (tapi kerja tetap berjalan dari rumah - talk about komitmen!). Doktor mahu beri 2 days MC but I said no thanks doc, I banyak kerja kat office. *slaps head*

Check-up went ok. Baby sudah engaged (er I suppose itu maknanya possibility untuk bersalin awal sudah ada). Mak tak rela! Ada few things tak sort out lagi (like the hospital bags, documentations, mental preparation, etc).

Esok I will be 37 weeks. Ya Allah, kuatkan semangatku!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Mode: Tired [glad that Friday is finally here]

"So are you gonna do an Erra Fazira*?," asked my sister and colleagues.

Hell yeah baby. ;p

* Pihak media terpaksa bersabar selama 44 hari sebelum dapat merakamkan foto baby Erra.

Friday, April 10, 2009

"Jangan salahkan I, I tak minta dilahirkan seksi sebegini" - Kak V, Breakfast @ Suria.

Rancangan radio with no moral values whatsoever but I love it!

Selamat Hari Friday Bagus.


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Wednesday, April 08, 2009

This morning my doctor said the baby is already semi-engaged. Meaning that Lil Yakuza is halfway there, sebelum dia 'menjenguk' keluar. Sounds like a battle cry from Star Wars to me! Eh wait, Star Wars ada battle cry ke? Doctor also said "See you in a week, if you tak bersalin lagi that is". Isk ngeri.

See you in a week means I have to work another week. Gahhhhhhhh.

OK lah nak makan kejap. I am at 36 weeks minggu ini.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Short rebiu of tongkeng ayam (TA) istimewa oleh Ayamas. Hmm sangat sedap!

If there's one thing that I kempunan ketika mengandung is only TA or nama glam-nya: Bishop's Nose. Itupun ketika 1st trimester. Or perhaps karena I'm absent-minded - one day I may be craving masak lemak ikan patin yang dijual di hadapan Istana Biru di Kota Bharu, the next day I might be craving ravioli di Pizza Uno pula. I forget about my cravings easily, just like I how I easily forget nondescript human beings yang aku jumpa hanya sekali.

Kenangan kempunan TA agak melucukan, because I wanted fresh ones so that I can goreng TA myself, instead of beli di pasar malam sahaja (yg selalunya bersalut madu eeee yuck). Not many supermarkets sell them, not even Ayamas anymore (they used to sell them by trays ok). When I was still in school, me & my mom bought TA kat Ayamas Bangsar. Ada mak datin sorang ni bought TA for her cats, sedangkan kami membelinya untuk sajian makanan tengahari! Fast forward a decade later, bila aku tanya kedai Ayamas near my house samada mereka menjual TA atau tidak - the girl laughed at my face as if I'm some nutcase gila nak makan bontot ayam (oh wait, I am that nutcase).

Last2 jumpa di Jusco AA akhirnya, walaupun ketika itu I pretty much gave up my quest for TA.

Ayamas probably heard my prayers. I wonder when are they gonna come up with
kaki ayam bersalut istimewa next (er, don't).

Friday, April 03, 2009



Look what I found! *flails*
Dream come true, TONGKENG AYAM BERSALUT ISTIMEWA.
Terima kasih Ayamas! Nanti apabila anak saya bercakap tanpa henti I have you to thank! :D

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

tidak mahu berkawan


Nate is Frankie
Originally uploaded by natinski
34 weeks. And still counting. I’m tired, I want 2 weeks of MC like other expecting mommies now. Over the weekend, I met some friends at Chawan (so-so place by the way, we all know we're paying for the ambiance, not the food). They were attending a reading organised by a long-time friend and I have not seen some of them since masa bujang! How time flies. Suf sudah beruban (kih kih), Ru pula sudah menjadi seorang yang unrecognizable with that scruffy hair (sarcasm still intact though), Azwan masih seperti dahulu walaupun signature hat-nya sudah tiada and ada budak Singapore gila sorang ni semakin vogue (tapi speed percakapan masih laju seperti bullet train). All is good anyway.

Kami dipersalahkan kerana tidak mahu menggunakan Fesbuk untuk berinteraksi. Banyak event2 yg kami ketinggalan & karya2 agung teman2 kini hanya boleh didapati secara eksklusif di Fesbuk. My friends even threatened to stop sending me their photos but will post them at fb instead so that I'll be forced to join fb.

Aergh taktik keji! Bleargh. But that's okay. I am a social hermit by choice these days (make that for the past 8 months).

p/s: Hamster kakak ipar aku sudah beranak (twins!). Debaran semakin memuncak.
p/ss: I think I need a haircut.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Friday morning guilty pleasure

Aku ada satu rahsia. Radio station I listen to on my way to work on Fridays is Suria FM sebab ada Kak Vee! She/he is febelez y'allz.


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Monday, March 23, 2009

Sometimes ppl can just be so gross. Let me tell you a story. Kisah benar, I don’t make stories up.

You know the food island at Cold Storage KLCC?
Ada jual potato salad, fries, fried chicken dan pelbagai juadah makanan lagi. So we wanted to buy the fried chicken. Nampak sedap. But masa tu ada wanita tua ni was standing in front of the fried chicken area sambil bercakap dengan kuat on the phone. Fine. Apa yang tak fine is that - At the same time, tau tak tangan dia buat apa? Tangan dia sedang kutih/cubit cebisan2 ayam goreng dan terus masuk mulut dia, macam makan popcorn. Selamba je dia makan! There were too many ppl around so if you walk past her, you wouldn’t notice her doing it.

Kami agak tergamam dengan situasi ini. We could have told the security and let the security drag her sorry ass (and dirty fingers) out of Cold Storage but man, we were just too stunned to do anything. Ada jugak orang macam ni!

Perhaps ini adalah tanda that the economy is really bad now? (tapi banyak jugak orang gi shopping like dapat bonus 10 bulan kan? Membeli hadiah hari jadi untuk diri sendiri seperti aku doesn’t count okay. La la la)

Friday, March 20, 2009

I’m doing a little homage for my late father on my Twitter today. Sudah 7 tahun dia meninggalkan kami. Kadang-kadang aku panik apabila aku lupa certain things about him. Dalam memori aku Baba akan kekal dalam uniform referee FAM warna hitamnya, sambil meniup wisel dan melayangkan kad merah. Setiap tahun berlalu, dia semakin jauh, dia tidak datang dalam mimpi aku lagi walaupun ada waktu jantung ini akan tersentap apabila terpandang lelaki yang iras-iras wajahnya. My father-in-law namanya BabaH, which is a good thing – sekurang-kurangnya ingatan aku pada my real Baba tidak lenyap (walaupun I must admit, apabila nama BabaH disebut, dunia ini terhenti seketika).

Jadi Ba, if I could layangkan sehelai nota ke syurga sekarang, I want you to know that I miss you terribly. I’m in good hands now. Roy is a good husband (he may not be a superhero like you tapi he’s doing his best!) and tak lama lagi I’m going to be a mother. I wish you could be there for me to tell me that everything will be alright. Thank you for this strength that I inherited from you and I hope all my doa to you diterima.

Al-Fatihah.

Monday, March 16, 2009


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Bersalah-nya rasa apabila gagal mengingati tarikh lahir arwah Baba.

Friday, March 13, 2009



Nothing much to report. No wait, I want to gloat sekejap. My road tax dah siap! 2 weeks early kali ini (my road tax will expire on my birthday – 25th March). Selalunya few days before or after it expires baru akan dapat terima road tax. Sebab apa? Because I have to get my bank to do it for me (which is in Berangan or Banting or something don’t ask me why my bank is there) and the bank uses the lousiest courier service! Mesti my road tax tak sampai.

So I decided to try myeg.com.my this year. Ala yang ada iklan Maya Karin tu. It was so easy! Say like if semalam I renew the road tax, today sudah dapat. But of course you have to bayar your saman trafik first, renew insurance (which can also been done online) then head over the myeg then settle. Phew, lega. Hurray me dum dee dum.

I have another ante-natal class tomorrow. Lately I’ve been missing my Queen Mother (nenda di Kota Bharu) sana – I’m not sure why.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I survived my prenatal exercises class. Or to put it mildly a la my husband "Gila babi bapak penat" (ok he doesn't speak that way but uhm, yeah, those are some of his favorite terms - harap2 Little Yakuza won't turn into a swearbox mwahaha). Dengan kaki yang senantiasa bengkak, rasa macam mahu menangis apabila ada gerak exercise yang melibatkan kaki.

Alamak it's almost 11pm (jangan percaya time stamp di bawah). Esoklah kita sambung.

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Seksanya nak bayar saman trafik.
Kali ke-3 singgah ke kaunter trafik baru dapat bayar saman:
1. Called balai polis TTDI to ask for the nearest place to pay saman - dia kata The Curve (polis kata it's only open from 10am to noon on weekends). Macam hampas, I went to there at 10:30am, turns out they are open from 2pm-8pm on weekends!
2. Went there again at 5pm. Abang polis pergi solat. *bangs head to the wall*
3. Terkejar-kejar kembali ke kaunter by 7:10pm. Takut abang polis pi solat lagi. He's there yay! Reluctantly parted with RM360.

Lepas ni aku janji aku tak park illegally / langgar lampu merah / obstruct traffic lagi!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The new Komikoo is finally out! Lama gila okay tunggu this issue. Worth the wait though because the paper quality sudah tidak flimsy lagi. Do get it at the your nearest bookstore. Orang Singapura mahu satu copy kah? Do email me okay. :)

p/s: Surat bonus masih belum kelihatan. Aergh the suspense will kill us all at the office.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Dah, aku sudah tahu macam mana rasanya ditikam dengan pedang samurai (yang tembus ke belakang). Try having gastric when you're pregnant! Semalam mmg meraung guling2-lah (at that time belum tahu aku kena gastric, sbb dah lama tak kena pun). Masuk tido at 10pm, then by midnight baru dapat melelapkan mata with the stabbing pains. By 2am wooo wa sudah tak tahan la, called hospital, MO said it may be gastric, but since takde ubat kat rumah, terus ke Emergency.

Mmg agak seram apabila keseorangan dalam labor room (R was on his way up masa tu) and yang hanya kedengaran was the baby's heartbeat. Macam bunyi degupan jantung Edgar Allan Poe. Or perhaps, bunyi tapak kuda and orang melompat-lompat upstairs (when you know there's nothing up there ala2 cerita seram). Then bila baby bergerak, bunyi macam dia tengah susun furniture. Geli hati pun ada.

By 4.30am we left the hospital (terima kasih Dr. El dan staff nurses yang sangat membantu) and sempat singgah McD for breakfast. Mmg gastric. Aduh, the pain was unbearable, tak sanggup to go through it again (alamak ini belum labor pains lagi ni).

Friday, February 20, 2009

baby obama!


baby obama!
Originally uploaded by natinski
Wah bila webmaster at the office kasi kelonggaran sahaja, everybody is busy checking their FB. In my case, I’m just scrambling to tweet or flickr. I am boring that way i know. Kami sebenarnya sedang tertanya-tanya tentang status our bonus this year (it’s supposed to come out this month tapi masih sepi tanpa khabar berita). I have a list of things to do with the money. Shared my list with R and terkedu sekejap apabila sang suami bertanya, “so what are you planning to get for Little Yakuza*?”. Alamak lupa pulak tentang future samurai dalam perut ini. Okay I shall put aside some money for a trust fund then okay. Insya_Allah.

* OK from now on baby will be known was Little Yakuza. Pergerakannya menusuk isi perut umpama pedang samurai sekarang ini (i’m in my 3rd trimester now – huuu takut!).

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Me: Where are you...
R: Kat sini ha, I park belakang mini van, belakang Proton Hijau, belakang kereta etc etc.
Me: I can't see you!
R: Jalan depan sikit. I nampak perut you!
Me: Nggh.

Sunday, February 15, 2009



Now, let’s see if I can write about my recent flight experience as faithful as possible. Last weekend we took a flight to Langkawi (dengan Air Asia lah apa lagi) – masa dah nak boarding, they asked whether I dah isi borang pengakuan pregnant (which I haven’t, but we have surat doctor just in case. Lagipun I was almost 27 weeks pregnant last week and letter is upon request only). Pada awal-nya kami kiasu nak berebut seats, but end up we were the last (nasib baik flight tak penuh). Mana taknye, the staff yang janji nak bagi form kepada kami hilang entah ke mana and end up kami terpaksa tanya sendiri at a different counter for the borang. Fine. We didn’t miss the flight or anything.

Sampai ke Langkawi, we had lots of fun under the sun – tour de Kilim Geoforest, naik cable car, makan di The Loft, lepak di pantai, shopping chocolates etc. Then hari Isnin datang, oh masa untuk pulang ke KL!

Sampai di airport untuk check-in, aku tanya siap2 for the borang pengakuan pregnant. Puan berapa bulan? 27 weeks. Ada surat doctor? Ada. The staff tengok the surat doctor and geleng kepala. She said surat doctor kena ada 7 days validity (mine was written 2 weeks before) and asked my doctor to fax a new one to Langkawi – or else tak boleh board.

Okay, fine. Except for one problem – KL tengah cuti Thaipusam! So we ask them, what’s the big deal, masa nak fly from KL nobody asked for a freaking surat doctor. Tambahan pula, kalau ikut regulations Air Asia, if you’re 27 weeks pregnant, you can still fly with them without doctor’s letter pun takpe. Bollocks. They asked me to go to counter customer service to sort out this matter.

You know, saat2 genting macam ni (I really don’t want to miss my flight) one would expect the staff to be supportive to help us. Instead ini yang terjadi (dengan staf Air Asia Si Muka Kelat yang mungkin gaji tak cukup):
1. Still tak boleh fly – tambahan pula apabila borang pengakuan mengandung dari KL tiada di tangan kami
2. Surat doctor tetap kena reject
3. Kena cari doctor di Langkawi to get a new letter
4. Oh, naik je teksi yang ada kat luar airport tu – tapi kena drag luggage sekali sbb AA tak offer nak tolong jagakan barang
5. Kalau miss flight, kena bayar penalty (walaupun kami gila kiasu sampai di airport awal)
6. Dan oh, oh, bayar the difference ya kalau the next flight is more expensive than the flight we’re supposed to board
Wow, rasa macam masuk Amazing Race pula. Aku sudah mula meninggikan suara apabila dia memberitahu kami tetap tak boleh fly: “So what are you going to do to help us here?!?”.

Tapi kami bukan jenis yang agresif – I know some of you would probably throw a hissy fit by then. Baby dalam perut mula stress seperti ibu-nya. Nak tak nak, terpaksa kami cari doctor di luar (thank God we still have our rented car masa tu) and found Klinik Delima. Doctor Yus kata this is not the first time orang kena macam ni – mmg susah nak fly back to KL without the right documentation (adakah ini satu sindiket untuk memaksa orang KL jadi orang Langkawi?). Dapat surat, terus rush balik ke airport.


This is our rented car. Gila p0rny!


But our misery didn’t end there. Si Muka Kelat itu masih mahu charge kami penalty dan pay for the cost difference – unless we have the letter from KL. Penat aku geledah luggage yang confirm tiada surat itu. Saat itu aku sudah raise my voice sekali lagi pada Si Muka Kelat itu “Kot ye pun nak kami bayar, you don’t have to be rude!!!”

What happened next was a blur. Si Muka Kelat asked me to quickly follow him, and minta R scan bags (walaupun kami dah scan the bags masa mula2 sampai tadi). Aku fikir, oh great, now he’s sending me to deal with his superior pula. Instead, we’re now back at the check-in counter, bags ditimbang semula, dan was asked to isi bukan 1, tapi 2 borang pengakuan mengandung. Tanpa apa2 explanation atau apologitika atau a clue whatsoever of what’s gonna happen next, kami diminta ke Gate 4 dengan cepat. Eh? Didn’t we miss our 9:50 am flight already? (it was already close to 11am ketika itu). Even the police kat departure gate thought the 950 plane dah blah.

Next thing we knew we were back in line untuk board flight – the 9:50am flight was delayed! Syukur pada Tuhan. Sungguh ajaib. Cuma masa nak masuk dalam aircraft aku kena tahan lagi. Air Asia lupa nak mintak RM10 from us for the luggages! Banyak betul dugaan (and cikadak).

Itu jelah pengalaman saya untuk kali ini. Should we lodge a report? We could, considering all the crap we had to go through. Tapi Air Asia adalah satu-satunya aircraft yang bukan sahaja no frills, but NON-APOLOGETIC either. A little common courtesy would be nice. Is that too much to ask? Tak mengapa. I’ll just post it here, for everyone to read and learn. I really hope they'll improve their customer service in Langkawi because honestly, they all suck.

[by the way, tiba di KL, aku sangkut lagi dan terpaksa bermalam di rumah in-laws : BATERI KERETA AKU MATI!!! Aergh!]

Saturday, February 14, 2009



Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
*flu / kaki bengkak / baby I. Yakuza practicing aikido dalam perut / rambut serabai*

Maybe later I'll write about my horrible experience with Air Asia last week.

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Bila berlaku peperangan je, semua orang mahu baca puisi.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009



Jaya Jusco, Alpha ANGEL. Semalam.

(haha dulu masa zaman sekolah, member2 mesti sebut "angel". Used to drive me crazy all the time)
Here's why you should never tell your stay-at-home mom that your current favorite drama Melayu is the same as hers.

Semalam I was about to watch the final episode of Laila Majnun on TV9 and my mom blurted out the ending of it. Rupa-rupanya she has seen LM earlier in the evening. "Mother! How could you....", merajuk la saya kejap.

Pffttth.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

First of all i must apologize to a Rosmaynni Jamali for using this visual without permission. I didn't bring my camera yesterday (actually I can't remember where I put it hee hee) and my google search brought me to this pic - I think this thing is called teko basuh tangan.



So anyway, I was at a wedding in Seremban yesterday. Sat in front of a lady and her family. Mamat2 caterer were a bit slow untuk clear-kan meja and ganti air basuh tangan. So this makcik in front me (agaknya dah fed-up menanti air basuh tangan yang lambat sampai) telah membuka bahagian bawah bekas bangun tangan (ya bahagian yang ada air bekas orang lain basuh tangan)

and dipped her hand into it. Like, euw gross!

I was already eating halfway but after seeing her did that, rasa geli tekak sikit but aku teruskan juga makan.
Sigh. There's always something amusing to comment about when you go to weddings.

Especially bila wedding
tu ada MC kenduri kahwin yang syok sendiri. Haihh, buat bingit telinga je. Sekian terima kasih.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Siapa yang google BAMBAM dikira disqualified. Oh I should have told you yesterday kan. But ada satu minah kiasu di Kota Singapura yang tidak lena tidur akibat gambar ala-ala sex toy itu (sex toy tang mana aku tak tahu la) sanggup menelefon aku today (after her last SMS from the barrage of SMS-es last night went unanswered) dan memberitahu jawapannya yang tepat sekali. Yes. It is a baby horn, satu alat tradisional dari Holland untuk mendengar degupan jantung bayi.

Terima kasih Lisa for the gift! Saya sangat terharu. Belum test lagi. Need to figure out kedudukan baby dulu. Esok ada check up untuk minggu ke-25. Baby I. Aulia (nama-nya bertukar setiap hari) sangat aktif sekarang. The other day kita kasi dia layan lagu Sweet Dreams by Eurythmics. Respons bagus daripadanya (atau adakah Baby I. Aulia tidak suka lagu itu?). Respond terhadap permainan video Patapon di PSP juga mendapat mendapat respon hangat. Apa lagi yang dia suka – Hikayat Putera Shazlan; lagu2 rock kapak dan cerita-ceriti dendangan ayahanda-nya; suara anak buah aku Anis (she’s the only niece who likes to say hello to the tummy); among other things.

Tapi dia tidak suka jeritan bos aku yang gemar meninggikan suara setiap masa. But that’s okay. I tell my tummy today, jangan layan sangat suara perempuan xxxx itu. Nanti bila lahir, jadilah seorang insan yang berani dan tabah hati okay! Or something like that. Sat gi kalau ter-deliver prematurely kang, siap-lah, aku nak saman minah tu!

Monday, January 19, 2009



Siapa boleh teka apakah alatan ini maka dia lah yang paling terror!

Nota: Tidak dibikin di Malaysia.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Semalam we went to the DBP sale in Keramat. I was looking for dictionary ekonomi. Then ada satu table ni ada banyak translated books: Marquez's Sumpah 7 Keturunan (Hundred Years of Solitude); Hemingway's Untuk Siapa Genta(?) Bergema (For Whom the Bell Tolls); Ellison's Halimunan (Invisible Man); Ishuiguro's Di Penghujung Senja (Remains of the Day) dan banyak lagi!

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I ended up buying Salina versi Inggeris. Couldn't find the Malay version. Terjemahan ini penuh dengan typo. *sigh*

salina

Menyesal pulak tak beli Dublin oh Dublin! Versi Inggeris pun tak boleh nak digest, ada hati nak baca BM version. But who knows, the BM version might be easier to understand. Ada berani?

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Oh crap, I just remembered something: Terjemahan Siddhartha pun tak habis baca lagi!

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Petang tadi di Wad Hema, ada pakcik ni who just arrived demanded that he be at Katil 15. Katil Danial. Pakcik tu berkeras nak katil 15 jugak which means my nephew has to move to another katil. Even the nurses tak berani nak kata apa. Rupa-rupanya katil 15 tu pakcik tu punya feveret katil. When he comes for chemo, he wants to be at katil 15.

Haihh, sakit-sakit pun, nak berlagak diva jugak. Ingat dia seorang je yang sakit.

Malas nak kata apa. Danial started mild chemo yesterday but he is still strong dan masih boleh bergelak-ketawa walaupun menahan ketidakselesaan badan ketika itu. He moved to another bed, the pakcik diva gets his wish, and we move on.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Sunday, December 28, 2008


Ever been to a segregated wedding?

It was my first yesterday
, di Sabak Bernam. Damn ralat sbb I have to sit with the ladies, dah lah I did't know anyone there! I think majlis kahwin di Kelantan pun takde kena duduk asing2 (I could be wrong). The last time I was told to sit away from the men was ketika di UIA so macam dejavu pulak. Not having to sit with R means kalau I tak habis makan, I won't be able to ask him to finish it! Deng.

Masa nak ambil nasi, ada akak2 ni tukang jaga nasi. Then one of them them hulurkan tangan. Aik? Isn't she supposed to scoop nasi for me? Oh woops, kena salam dulu! Baru boleh ambil nasi! I know, I am damn jakun-slash-ignorant. Itupun they were giving me a dirty look because I asked for nasi lebih. How can I not ask for nasi lebih when I can already see the glorious food served - my favorite lauk kuning with ikan masin & nenas (I donno the name, I told you I'm ignorant), ayam goreng, some other delicious-looking lauks dan mountains of kacang botol and more ikan masin. Siap ada kerepek pisang on the table. I'm sold. I want to live in Sabak Bernam and eat this everyday!

Ketika pengantin sedang bersanding (bersertakan kompang/zikir dalam bahasa yang tidak dapat difahami), another guest and I were looking for the meja pengantin. Then the bride and groom disappear. They were already on the floor, makan atas lantai! *jakun mode* I was telling R, kalau-lah majlis kahwin kita we have to eat on the floor, there is no way I can manage that in my super tight corset!

Ketika sedang menanti masa sesuai untuk bergambar dengan pengantin, I asked Syafiq (R's nephew dari Jepun) to think of a name for a baby boy (assuming that I am expecting a boy la hoh). Jadi ini suggestion dia:



Mohd. Aiky. Not bad. Kalau dapat girl, we'll name her Aoki, yay!




Anyway, Mike & Hadis, selamat pengantin baru. It was an interesting wedding. :)

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Stuff I don’t like right now (because hate is a strong word):
1. Buat board report. Ngggh. Sudah hujung tahun ni, produktiviti kurang.
2. Bila orang langgar your side mirror di car park. Bukannya gheti nak betulkan balik.
3. Mengambil barang yang jatuh ke lantai

I’m sure there’s more but with my short memory span (a blessing in disguise at times) I can only offer 3 for now.

Anyway, my nephew Danial sudah dipindahkan ke another hospital to start his treatment (soon, I suppose). Tisu bone marrow sudah diambil dan next week we’ll get the result. Pertama kali melangkah masuk ke Wad Hematologi rasa seperti melangkah ke universe lain, di mana penghuni-nya hanya berpakaian hijau dan berkepala botak. Bilik Danial was at the end of the corridor dan setiap langkah ke sana terasa begitu berat sekali. Kiri, kanan, semua-nya botak. Ada yang ber-congregate sesama mereka (they look happy), ada yang terlantar (they look sad), ada yang bersama keluarga. Danial was playing Monopoly with a 24 year old guy bersama tunangnya. The guy has leukemia, dan ini kali kedua dia menjadi penghuni wad tersebut. For now, Danial seorang sahaja yang masih berambut dan memakai t-shirt comic yang aku hadiahkan untuknya, a stark contrast from penghuni2 lain di situ. Dia juga sudah pandai mengusik nurse2 dan guard2 wanita di situ, but hey that runs in the family. :)

Yesterday we spent a little bit of time di bilik TV menonton Spa Q (Danial’s room is too cold and miserable). Apabila masuk azan Maghrib, kami minta diri untuk pulang but he asked for us to stay a bit longer. By 7:30, I had to say my goodbye, lagipun this little light bulb dalam perut sudah mula mengaum kelaparan. Danial kelihatan sedikit kecewa, but we promised we’ll come back again over the weekend. Perhaps with a new board game, to ease the boredom a little. I wish I can spend more time with him before he starts chemo because by the time the real misery begins, when he starts losing his hair, when he starts vomiting, crying for help, I’m not sure if can be strong enough for him. It’s just so difficult right now.

In my head, I scream THINK HAPPY! But who am I kidding. For now I’m just grateful that my pregnancy tidak memberikan banyak masalah. I suppose this kid in my belly is giving me all the strength that I need. If I could clone myself. I would. To be a good wife, a devoted aunt, a stellar employee, a caring sister, a happier mother-to-be. Guess I have to work a little harder on that.

(updated: Danial gets to home until the 30th Dec! Alhamdulillah)

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Seribu resah di sini. Tapi kita angkat dagu, sapu air mata, pujuk kandungan, teruskan hidup.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Natural blues - Moby

oh lordy, trouble so hard
oh lordy, trouble so hard,
don't nobody know my troubles but God
don't nobody know my troubles but God

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Aduh jika drama Rashid Sibir ni asyik go back-and-forth ke flashback sahaja, I think I need something else to watch.

Anyway,
ketika dinner di Kelfood tadi, ada makcik tua jual kerepek ni mengeluh kenapa orang sekarang taknak beli kerepek. I wasn't really listening to her, because I get very emotional when I see old people but here are the problems:
1. She wasn't the only selling
kerepek there. Before her, there was already 2 ppl selling kerepek, including one brader ska-alim berbahasa Kelantan menjual keropok dan seorang lelaki yang diragui kewarganegaraannya (wow a mouthful!) meminta sedekah - for what, I don't know, but standard lah, pegang file yang berisi surat yang diakui kerajaan.
2. I have more than 4 jenis kerepek at home! I get my supply of kerepek(s) di pasar tani berhampiran pejabat, tak tahulah dibuat di mana, tetapi sangat sedap.

Hmm itu sahaja lah. Melihat makcik tu sudah cukup membuat aku rasa sedikit depressed. Ditambah dengan perbualan bersama ibu sendiri yang menambahkan gundah-gulana. Tambah dengan drama brader Sibir ni pula (alahai drama antara dua darjat is SO yesterday). Masuk tidur awal lagi bagus.

Oh by the way,
wahai contractor2 JKR yang rajin sangat nak tar jalan awal2 malam tu (pukul 10 malam) I am sure that you are aware of the massive jam you guys are causing. Tak boleh ke tar jalan lambat sedikit, some of us pukul 10 malam baru nak balik rumah dari office okay!

Sunday, November 23, 2008



I am watching Perempuan, Wanita and Dot Dot Dot untuk kali ke berapa sudah. I have to go to work later in the afternoon and hopefully I can get some work done. Begitu banyak sekali kerja yang perlu disiapkan. Sebab apa? Sebab it's so hard to hire people with good writing skills. So if you think you know finance and investment, know how to work the Bloomberg terminal and loves to write and doesn't mind melayan kerenah Americans, I want you! (to suffer with me)

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Tengah check out baju kebaya tadi then MIL said "Tak payah tengok, tunggu sampai bersalin".
*sulks into a corner, then emerges minutes later*


Tok Guru on Off The Edge! My hero. And Mr. Barack H.


Minggu ini minggu membaca. But they're not helping to drown things/sounds/fear.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

Tengah lipat baju ni. Another round of laundry sedang di air-dry. On TV is some show about Ustaz Azizi mengubat orang yang kena rasuk or something. Tengah contemplate melipat kain cadar yang besar itu which is why I am updating now, tengah tunggu feel untuk melakukan/membuat such a big task. I normally make fun of RashidSibir's drama tapi semalam, aergh, mana aci pikat penonton dengan scene M. Rajoli baca al-Quran. Haih, apa lagi, Kleenex time-lah. Would be nice if I get to see arwah Baba menghabiskan masa tua-nya membaca al-Quran. But the past is past.

Today I'm gonna go out shopping after I watch Melodi.
Sudah berhari-hari office pantry menjadi gelanggang hangat mengutuk Norman Hakim keh keh. Poor guy. Siap sembahyang istikharah panggil press tu! This beats drama RashidSibir anytime.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Morning thoughts:

I figured kalau JAKIM/Majlis Fatwa/somesuperpowerwithnobrains mahu mengharamkam yoga, they might as well look into Muslims yang belajar Indian classical dance. Ever wondered if they've been praying 5 times a day? Hmm? Yoga helped me to get through some of my darkest days while trying to nurse a broken heart and it made a huge difference for me yang memang malas exercise. So yeah, that's my testimonial. Look around you, while we turn a blind eye on teenage couples meraba sana sini in public, we're wasting our time and effort trying to haram-kan something that is good for the body, soul and mind. So no brownie points for you Mr. Mufti!

Another thing that will not be getting any brownie points from me is EPF. Excuse me, i like my 11% caruman. So, those losers yang nak kurangkan their caruman to 8%, they're the ones who should isi borang la! Why us? We all know that by the time we retire, our EPF savings can only last for 3 years so fikir-fikirkan lah ye. 3% cannot buy you anything. Keep it. You'll be thanking me when you're old.

Sekian terima kasih. I'm gonna eat my 2nd roti canai now.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008



Hello.

Walaupun mengamalkan ajaran The Secret (Ask. Believe. Receive. Gratitude. Visualization) but ini sebenarnya kuasa Allah yang Maha Esa semata-mata dan maha mendengar doa (dan rintihan hamba-Nya).

I am 12 weeks pregnant. (addendum: woops, my bad, i'm 13 weeks preggers, man, I can't count)

In other words, aku sudah berjaya melepasi zon trimester (tanpa muntah2, Alhamdulillah) dan bolehlah untuk bercerita pada semua orang – yes, i’m pregnant! Yeahoo! (cuma R yang tak sabar memberitahu dunia-nya terlebih awal dengan memberitahu universe Twitter-nya – tapi berjaya di-delete dengan bantuan Cik Li before anyone sees it dan blog-nya sudah ada unsur-unsur ke-bapa-an). Too soon perhaps? We’ve been married for 4 months, inai masih di jari, masih lagi mencari kesesuaian/keserasian hidup bersama but rezeki adalah rezeki. Mungkin buat masa sekarang aku terpaksa letak di tepi dahulu borang permohonan biasiswa Chevening atau resume yang perlu dihantar ke World Bank (yes, there is an opening based in DC) atau Wii Fit yang sudah lama menjadi idaman itu but for now i need to concentrate on this miracle that is growing in my belly.

Everyday I am engulfed by fear – what if our baby grows up to be someone
yang rude dan tidak mendengar kata, what if dia tidak pandai mempertahankan dirinya apabila dibuli rakan sekolah/majikan, what if dia tidak sihat, what if dia tak minat music & poetry & bad drama Melayu yang telah menyatukan ibu bapanya? Terlalu banyak ‘what ifs’ dibandingkan dengan ‘Alhamdulillah jika...”. Berat rasanya beban untuk sentiasa berfikiran positif but insyaAllah I will do my best.

To my friends who have not seen me since forever, aku minta maaf. Tiap kali aku tengok cermin rasa macam mahu di-spray paint sahaja cermin itu. Aku “serabai segala” these days! I know we will meet soon, when i feel good enough about myself. And don’t get me started on how stubborn and annoying i’ve been these days. ;)

So yeah, business as usual at this ranting space. This will not be a “my journey throughout pregnancy” blog i promise (sorry Li!).

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Ada ulang tayang Lima on Astro Ria jika mahu nonton.

(oh Abang Laywer Handsome!)

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Saturday, October 11, 2008



Rasanya mood Raya sudah tiada, it’s back to the usual grind at the office. Lagipun membaca Wall Street Journal dan The Edge Singapore semakin menggigit jari mengalahkan bacaan fiksyen. Aku sudah tak larat nak keep up with the market news (because I keep having to change the information in my write-ups or press releases), but nak tak nak terpaksa baca juga sambil gigit knuckles pula, memikirkan kemungkinan besar bonus tahun depan akan susut jika keadaan ekonomi terus terkapai-kapai kelemasan sebegini. Please do not mention "free-falling" in front of me! Oh well, I suppose rezeki ada di mana-mana, and it doesn’t have to come in the form of money.

Few things to share during the recent
balik kampung trip :

1. Pilot MAS cakap dialek Kelantan on board. A nice change.
2. Opposite
Istana Batu, there is a cultural village of some sort and also a restaurant that sells nasi ulam. Discovered lauk ikan patin asam pedas meets masak lemak, but with a Kelantan twist, because it was slightly sweet. Tapi sedap!
3. Ketika aku sedang menyidai baju di bawah rumah nenek, my youngest niece si Ayn was running around scaring everyone with a ‘tali’ and she was going “Eeeee, ular, ular”. Of course la I completely brushed her off. Then my other niece took a closer look and alamak, she’s playing with kulit ular! Apa lagi, lintang-pukang lah Cik Nate lari naik atas rumah hehe.
4. My youngest brother is so hopelessly in love. Checking his jiwang SMS-es made me wanna to vomit (sorry I have to play the over-protective sister here, awek gila dia tu asyik suruh dia jadi supir je). Bonus points if i get to understand the bahasa SMS though. Yuck.
5. Akibat kebosanan, my eldest nephew sudah buat music video shuffle-nya dengan bantuan Husband sebagai jurukamera. Will upload it on youtube jikalau connection is good. Which I doubt I’ll do it.
6. Fairul Nizam telah menjadi pelanggan feveret akak yang jual nasi dagang. Read here: Perihal Nasi Dagang..

Okay lah. Back to doing laundry. Nerissa jemput makan tengahari di rumahnya today. Dia beri jaminan sambal belacan uncle-nya pasti meletup. I hope she's right. :)

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Semalam we went to Wisma PKNS at ShahAlam to buy baju kurung Raya. I think it’s my first real baju Raya since my father died.

We will be in Selangor on the first day of Raya and off to good ol’ Kelate until next Monday. I’ll only be on Twitter for now.

Selamat Hari Raya, and Maaf Zahir & Batin peeps!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Semalam berakhir sudah rancangan kegemaran aku. Selepas ini tiada lagi Lima dan eye candy, Abang Lawyer Handsome yang membantu NamRon untuk menjejaki semula keluarganya. Bila ada commercial break, sempat menonton Bersamamu. Kenapa dalam dunia ini masih ada warga2 tua yang hidup susah?!? You know, I cry everytime I watch Bersamamu, I know I’m super weak to watch it but noooooo, nak jugak tengok. Padan muka aku. I’m just a sap at heart. Even watching Pink’s latest video makes me want to cry because I think Pink and Corey Hart should stay together forever and ever.

Few more days to go before Raya! But masih di dalam mode ‘kerja-banyak-rasa-macam-nak-resign-24-hours’. Duit Raya sudah ditukar, biskut Raya sudah dibeli, hotel sudah di-book, jadi tinggal apa lagi? Oh, nak pack baju. Tak suka!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Gourd, how tragic is Lima kan? (The mini series on Astro Ria - Monday to Rabu - 9pm). It's really good though. Memang agak tension sikit apabila menontonnya but man, I'm hooked!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I can't be everybody’s moral police. Especially when I’m passing by the emerging stairs (it’s the fastest way to get to the loo) and I can smell food and ciggies, and men talking in low voices. Hai, bang, takkan tak puasa kot? There’s 20+ floors here, it could be anyone. It could be a team of lawyers, analysts or bankers, but I can only confirm that they are sekumpulan Muslim yang tak malu dan semoga dapat pembalasan yang sewajarnya di akhirat kelak. Benci.

Anyway, if you ever go to pasaramadhan at TTDI, if there’s a super friendly guy selling samosa (seringgit satu) – beli! The samosa is very nice.

Friday, September 05, 2008

I always thought J merupakan seorang yang paling bertuah kerana mempunyai seorang datuk yang dihormati ramai, di mana sumbangannya terhadap bidang penulisan dan journalism tiada tandingan. I suppose J inherited most of his traits - her love for books and kebijaksanaanya ketika kami menuntut sastera Inggeris satu ketika dulu mmg membuatkan aku cemburu. It was so easy for her, sedangkan aku terpaksa bertungkus-lumus untuk lulus. Pasti seronok menjadi cucu kepada seorang ilmuwan yang begitu banyak berjasa kepada negara. I don't think I'll ever forget his wide frame glasses (aku sebenarnya takut padanya - rasa kerdil diri ini - siapalah aku!).

Rest in peace, Pak Samad. You're in a better place now.

Al-Fatihah.
Stuck dalam trafik lagi semalam. Wahai muslim dah muslimah yang rushing nak balik rumah atau ke pasaRamadhan tu, harap2 bersabar juga lah ye. Saya pun nak balik juga. Tak perlu jadi pemandu2 super bangsat kerana you tetap akan lambat. Potong sana, cilok sini, tapi tengok, you masih di belakang saya bukan?

Looks like it’s gonna rain sekejap lagi. Not craving anything today. Cuma today harap-harap pasaRamadhan jalan kuching tidak menghampakan (ye walaupun jam sedunia sanggup ku tempuhi jua!).

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Semalam di pasaRamadhan TTDI, tiada apa yang menarik. Hanya Din Murtabak mendapat stamp of approval di atas kesedapan murtabaknya. Tak sia-sia beratur panjang. I saw Erra Fazira beratur untuk beli popia basah jadi mungkin tempat tu sedap juga. The rest, brrh. You know I can tell if the ayam percik is any good by just looking at the kuah...

Today maybe mahu terjah the pasaRamadhan near my house. Menu wajib for me is murtabak, so hopefully can get a good one as well today. If the traffic is not as crazy as yesterday, that is.

By the way, I just registered my eldest nephew to attend a PMR workshop this weekend. He’s so gonna kill me! I don’t care, aku nak jugak dia attend workshop tu. Jangan ada geng2 shuffle kat sana sudah. ;p
Tahun lepas, suasana Ramadhan di office lama agak menyeronokkan. Aktiviti bulan Ramadhan diisi dengan tadarus, tazkirah dan juga the annual bubur lambuk percuma untuk hari pertama berpuasa dan juga peluang berbuka dengan anak-anak yatim. Tahun ini di office baru, habuk pun tarak. Soal beribadat, sendiri mahu ingatlah. Dahlah hanya boleh pulang jam 5. sigh.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Oh my life will never be the same again. Semalam berakhirlah episode Tangisan Bulan Madu with a ‘what-the-F’ ending. So next week with no TBM and Gossip Girl – how am I supposed to function?!?

The last time I checked, there are two other drama series yang menggunakan lagu tema yang sama seperti TBM. Lagu Pelangi Petang by Sudirman. *roll eyes* Can they please not imitate one another boleh tak? I’m sure there are other equally sappy songs that they can use.

On a superhero note, aku sudah report pada WWF (well I told a friend who used to work for WWF who promised to report to WWF hee hee) tentang Sanktuari (tsk) Gajah di Sg. Ketiar di Tasik Kenyir. I demand the elephants to be released from their chains! Apakenama sanctuary kah ini?!! Yes I understand, they might naik angin and pijak semua orang sampai mati but I believe if the animals are treated right insyaAllah they will respect you back in return.

Sanktuari konon. Pffth.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008



Hey you guys, Komikoo isu ke-5 sudah berada di pasaran. Absolutely love it kerana Adijin did the cover (been following his 'Siapa' like a fangirl - Great stuff!). Aku rasa cover kali ini begitu chick magnet sekali. I mean, come on, how could you not love the cover kan?

But of course I have to pimp Chee's Pendekar Kungfu in this issue. (dude if you're reading this ayuh ikut kami makan ayam percik di Kelfood - you'll love it)

I must say that this issue is my favorite-lah. Segalanya best eventhough I do wish the cover is kurang nipis but otherwise all is good. And psst, bigger font for the articles please! ;)

Baru nak baik demam ni. Still a long week. I'm watching the news now. Budak2 sekolah kena histeria lagi.

Save the Hysterics. That would make a good band name.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Tadi a friend of mine tanya what is the status of my pengajian Masters yang terbengkalai itu.

I said it’s "permanently on hold". Whatever that means.

I can’t say I miss post-graduate school very much tapi keinginan untuk menghabiskan pelajaran tetap ada walaupun I think by now I have to start all over again (sayangnya I have one more semester to go – damn you to Dante’s Hell subjek 18th Century Enlightenment!).

Tengoklah macam mana.

(which roughly translates to "when I have extra money, time and brains to fry").

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Last few weeks, I walked past a lady di pasaraya di Bangsar di mana tudungnya telah terkena tahi burung yang agak banyak. I didn’t have the heart to tell her, but mostly because I was super hungry and my pasta was waiting for me di D*Lish. I hoped and hoped that somebody would have the courtesy to tell her instead.

2 days back, seorang lelaki tua mengerang kesakitan di tepi jalan setelah dilanggar oleh seorang warga asing bermentaliti seperti warga Malaysia yang gemar memandu laju tanpa memikirkan keselematan pengguna2 jalanraya yang lain. I told (paksa) R to stop by the side of the road, just to check whether pakcik itu memerlukan bantuan yang serius. Sekali lagi scenario yang hampir sama, aku mahu mahu membantu lelaki itu tapi aku takut melihat darah, what if I faint when I see the pakcik’s condition?

Aku mahu jadi superhero, tapi aku terlalu selfish dengan menyalahkan kelemahan diri sendiri untuk bertindak.

If you ask me, whenever I see an accident, nak je aku bantu (trust me, I see a LOT of accidents, including today – perhaps I should work part-time as a tonto instead). But apa kan daya, selalunya lelaki yang berkerumun, and it’s not like I have a first aid kit in hand ke (see, excuses excuses). Mungkin aku belum bersedia.

Mungkin baik aku duduk di rumah diam-diam layan Luna Fantasiku sahaja. Hehe.
Speaking of Luna Fantasiku, notice tak, dalam first episode, one scene was shot at Cupcake Chic yang mengadap IKEA itu but ‘kononnya’ scene itu scene di Singapore – because the chick said something like "I have a plane to catch to KL". Pftth, who are you trying to fool!? Benci! Sama benci macam bila scene ‘luar negara’ is normally shot at Cameron Highlands je. ;p

p/s: Happy Birthday to Nini G. And ooh! The new Komikoo is out. Will review it this weekend (sbb Adijin did the cover and mah friend Chee is in it too, woot!)

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Kenapalah aku hanya mengingati untuk bernafas (i.e. tarik nafas panjang-panjang) apabila berada di dalam toilet sahaja. Ish, tak sesuai. Sejak mendapat bos baru, memang agak tertekan di ofis sehinggakan lupa untuk bernafas, lupa untuk mengingati diri sendiri bahawa "this is just work" dan rasa seperti tidak mampu lagi untuk menjadi seorang penulis berbakat untuk syarikat.

Sukarnya hidup apabila bekerja dengan high-achievers.

Pada masa beginilah mula rasa seperti mahu mencari kerja yang 'mindless' sahaja. But I don't think I'll be happy (unless they can pay me gadjillion of bucks to be a secretary ke, PA ke hur hur).

I guess for now I just have to hold my head high and march on!

Bah.

Friday, August 01, 2008

Going back to KB this weekend.

(Oh gawd, janganlah panas sangat cuaca di sana)

Tuesday, July 29, 2008



My current guilty pleasure.


Actually when i first started watching it (on TV2 every selasa & rabu), I didn’t know that it was adapted from a book. Ok fine, doesn’t mean anything to me because kalau buku itu sangat jiwang, then i wouldn’t even touch it with a 10-foot pole! Anyway, I started watching it sebab character-nya nama Bogatt. Bogatt?!? Isn’t that like Humprey Bogart? Ada ke nama orang Melayu macam tu (dalam dunia make-believe – hell yes). Besides, pelakon bagi watak Bogatt itu adalah my classmate masa kursus nikah. Huhu.

In a nutshell, plot-nya agak best. Terlalu panjang untuk diceritakan tapi ia lain dari yang lain (Yusof Haslam could learn a thing or two from this). Tapi dah halfway through ni, plot-nya agak mendatar pula. Missed a couple of episodes, and next thing i know Abang Bogatt is XXXX and his half-brother is xxxxxx [no spoilers hehe].

But of course, like any other mini series, bila dah halfway through, mulalah plotnya menjunam menjadi sesuatu yang agak membosankan. I try to watch it once in a while now tapi macam sudah tak best (sbb Abang Bogatt sudah XXXX!). Sigh.

The other day my sister was like, “Aik, since when did you start watching Malay series?”. Like hello,
kerap juga ok! OK fine, only if Aaron Aziz yang berlakon. Or Jehan Miskin. I like him a lot. Walaupun dia hanya baca buku Paolo Coelho. Aku cukup menyampah bila orang kata “I read Coelho” because honey, that does not make you the most philosophic person in the world! But that’s okay. At least dia baca buku.

Monday, July 21, 2008

“poser gila babas”*
Kata Sufian Abas (hey that rhymes!)

* Tatkala dia mendapati muka aku keluar Sunday Star semalam. Dia sentiasa cemburu bila aku lagi femes daripada dia. Huhu!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I know I'm supposed to write about the incident that happened masa kenduri kahwin but I already sold our story to a local newspaper today! Should be out in August. Ha! Ha!

So this week dah buat 2 newspaper interviews for 2 different topics. Can't wait to read them ie kisah diri sendiri di dada akhbar. Vain!

On another newsworthy news: Cita-cita untuk menjadi isteri modern yang tidak memasak terpaksa dikuburkan buat seketika. I actually cooked today (last time I cooked masa finals exam Kemahiran Hidup - that's like 14 years ago!). But berkat resipi Chef Wan, Ayam Goreng Masak Seri Wangi turned out delicious! :D To be honest, I can't say I'm too crazy about cooking (makan luar manyak shiok) but will try to cook at least once a week. Do understand that from my ignorant point of view, cooking is like being in a science lab - if I get the right ingredients and sukatan, maka menjadilah eksperimen aku. *evil laugh*

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Alhamdulillah, segalanya sudah selesai i.e. no more make-up tebal, bone-breaking corset and jari-jemari semakin pulih dari menggelupas. I’m now back to work - a working wife dan hopefully after all that we’ve been through to get where we are now, mudah-mudahan we will be happy sampai akhir hayat.

Many thanks to our dear family and friends and bloggers for the undying support dan gifts! The best gift that we got was probably from our poet-friend Azwan Ismail, yang telah menghadiahkan sesuatu yang sangat sesuai. Ish, rahsia-lah, cannot tell dia bagi apa... :) Our sincerest thanks to our beloved photogs as well, CandidSyndrome – Udey & Sofi; Zuhri of Redmedia (yang telah banyak berkorban!) and his team and also the wonder woman Anna Rina who I had so much fun with.

It crossed my mind once in a while that bila aku kahwin nanti, no more blogging for me lah. I think I’ve revealed enough already (with reluctance at times) but I don’t think I can. Those who managed to catch my sister’s speech at my reception would know that this is how I speak my mind, this is how I express my feelings – through writings (yang sometimes does not make sense pun). So in the meantime, business as usual for this space.

Will update later on an incident that happened masa reception, untuk dikongsi bersama.

[updated via vtunnel]

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Oh Abang Pierre, when you say that your watak in Sepi is going to be different, I really thought you akan membawa watak jahat ke, police brutal with a sexy lisp ke, but nooooo you tipu I! Like hello, your watak in Sepi is similar like the rest! Bukan you selalu berlakon jadi kekasih yang memahami ke? Kalau setakat jadi {exclude spoiler here}, hello, that's not really different honey!

But oh well, do go see the movie.
Nasha Aziz berlakon mmg best kali ni (Pierre Andre can learn a thing or two from her).

Anyway, I laughed out loud watching Gaia this week. My husband made a cameo appearance hehe. Geli hati aku.

There will be another wedding reception on 5th of July (thanks to those who showed up at my reception!). My
jari-jemari masih menggelupas like crazy no thanks to the inai. Hopefully they'll be okay by Saturday or else I'm gonna look like someone with a severe disease on my fingers. huargh.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Done & Done


DSC_2889.jpg
Originally uploaded by udeyismail

At this point, I can only pray that everything will turn out all right.

(Jari-jemari aku gatal like crazy, I'm allergic to inai buatan negara India! *uhuk*)

I look forward to see my husband.

Fairul Nizam! You are stuck with me now! *gelak evul*

Monday, June 23, 2008

(oops Cik Nate belum kahwin lagi, nikah is on the 28th, reception on the 29th. *breathe Cik Nate breathe*)



p/s: Many thanks to dear Shahril Nizam for the original artwork & Prof. Dr. Lim, you are one in a million.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Permohonon untuk tidak memakai inai telah di-reject bulat-bulat oleh pihak keluarga. Oh crap.

Anyway, 2 days back I had the biggest sms fight with my eldest sister. I think this one is an irreparable one, despite her being the key figure to make this wedding ceremony works. Aku sudah beyond kecewa dengan keadaan sekarang, but inilah lumrah dugaan bagi orang-orang yang mahu membina masjid. Drama.

Biarlah si kakak yang merasa 'she wants everything to be perfect therefore i have to listen to her' berada di dalam bubble kemarahannya untuk beberapa hari. Biarlah si adik ini mengubat luka-nya - i have many things to do in the next 7 days. Wedding dress tak siap lagiiiiiiii!!!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Undilah kawan saya yang bernama Chee!

Di sini: War Heroes Cover Competition.

Dia di Heat 10. Undilah hasil kerja tangan rakyat Malaysia!

p/s: Dia single dan mahu bercinta dengan gadis Melayu. Aku kata please-lah, jangan, Chee jangan.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Akses to blogger di ofis ini kejap berjaya, kejap di-block.

Great, now I can't recall what i wanted to say.

Saturday, June 07, 2008

And we fought like children.

Saat-saat macam ni, I need my friends around me. Dan apabila hati terguris sesama teman yang persahabatan telah terbina sekian lama, it hurts more than papercuts, more than your first (and last) heartbreak.

My sister used to tell me that no man is an island. I guess she's right.


[sorrylah entry emo lagi. sejak-sejak akhir ni memang terlalu emosional, i think by 29th June, my frail heart will be the size of a peanut kot]

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

This morning I was in the office early because ada tele-conference with our American investasi team at 7:30 am. 7:30! Normally aku baru nak bangun waktu begini. Dahlah semalam I stayed back sampai 10pm. Yelah, walaupun bukan selalu tapi rasanya otak sudah berhenti berfungsi sejak jam 6 ptg. Anyway, the Americans minta maaf berbanyak kali kerana terpaksa memilih waktu sebegini. Mereka di sana jam 6:30 ptg, kita 7:30 pagi. Mungkin boleh dienjakkan lagi masa, but our mat salleh counterparts tak suka stay back, they prefer to spend quality time with family after office hours. Wow. Completely different mentality from ours. If we could sleep at the office, we would. Hur hur.

Peribahasa baru:
Jangan berumah di tepi petrol station.

Padan muka aku terpaksa parking kereta di luar dan agak jauh sebab jam teruk di sekitar petrol station. ;p

Friday, May 23, 2008

Mansun - Wide Open Space

I can do whatever I like. So right now, allow me to emo kejap okay.

Monday, May 12, 2008

I don't do the countdown until the big day because he does. I think I'm pretty much livin' up to the gelaran 'most relaxed bride-to-be on Earth!' but honestly I try not to think about it too much. Or else I'll go crazy or sat gi kena nervous breakdown lagi it's not gonna be very pretty. Buat masa sekarang aku sudah dapat projek baru dan ia dijangka dilancar pada 3 Julai. So you can imagine lah how hectic things are for the next couple of weeks until the big date. I really hope I can pull everything off. InsyaAllah.

Okaylah I want to eat McDonald's now. Oh sedapnya Big Mac! ;p

Thursday, May 08, 2008

"youlah cakerawala sebab tu gua jadi bintang mintang"

HA ha Ha ha.

Sunday, May 04, 2008


Semalam sebab kami banyak sangat komplen tentang cuaca panas, tiba-tiba Kota Bharu hujan ribut selebat-lebatnya. Masa tu I was di bawah rumah Nenda and ya Allah, nasib baik aku ni bukan bersaiz anoreksia - kalau tidak sudah lama dibawa terbang oleh angin kuat.

I'm back in KL now. First thing I bought today was ayam penyet ria di mentari business park, sunway. Hmm sedap juga. Agak terkilan kerana bekalan frozen ayam percik yang telah dijanjikan kepada few ppl tidak dapat ditunaikan sbb sudah sold-out! Mmg frust betul. Laksam/nasi dagang untuk orang2 Kay Ell juga tidak dapat dibeli pagi tadi because i had to catch my flight early in the morning and peniaga-peniaga Kay Bee only starts selling after 7. Oh well, next time okay.

The Queen Mother
(Nenda) told my auntie that aku sudah ada ciri-ciri isteri mithali. Huhu. Well, this means a lot to me lah because over the years it's so hard to please her, everything has to perfect. Lipat baju kena perfect size, gaya menyapu sampah kena demure supaya sampah dan habuk tidak terbang, pemakaian harus sopan etc. So yeah, allow me this moment to be extra grateful for the little things that she say right now. :)


Anyway, I have gossip
istana! Tentang Tengku Mahkota kesayangan aku tu lah.. Tapi bila fikir balik, eh aku nak share gosip ini dengan siapa ya? Well, whatever happens I wish him all the best lah and pray that he will find real happiness soon.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Greetings from Kota Bharu! I am sitting on my grandmother's wheelchair (couldn't find a better chair) and checking my work emails. Ye, saya tahu, I should just put work aside tapi saya belum punyai Blackberry jadi no choice ma!

Weather is super hot here. Super, super hot. I am sipping my cold cold Coke right now.

Flight dari KL was okay.
Sebaik saja take-off, ada 'abe Kelate' sitting behind me pasang lagu rakyat. Kuat pulak tu! I guess dia tidak minat muzak yang dimainkan dalam pesawat MAS. Nak gelak pun ada, saya tahulah awak tak sabar nak balik KB - sebab saya pun tak sabar juga - but you don't have to play the lagu Kelate so loud! ;p

I had
nasi dagang for breakfast tadi...

Okay-lah gotta run, nenek sudah tanya sama ada sudah sembahyang Zohor ke belum.... woops.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Hmm lately ni banyak pulak orang lock blog mereka (okay fine, just 2 but still). You know who you are okay - jangan baca entry ini and go "huhhh me?" pulak.

Last weekend ketika makan ayam penyet cinta it turns out that Peterpan was eating at the table behind me. Like omg. Tapi actually Cik Nate buat tak tahu aja.. sebab Ariel takde pun. Because if he was around hell yes I would have posted a pic of us here bebeh.

Semalam first time in so many years aku mengigau. Mimpi kaki diheret di bilik mayat. Bila menjerit, ya Allah seksanya suara nak keluar. Hopefully malam ni takde recurring dreams - tak sanggup beb! Perhaps I should sleep with the lights on tonight.

Ok ciao dulu. I'm going back to KB on Thursday. Tidak terkata keseronokan untuk makan, makan dan makan!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Hmm nothing much to update.

This is the same answer ppl will get
bila mereka tanya how's the wedding preparation coming along.

Nothing much to update, because seriously, there's nothing much to update! hehe.

But in the meantime, save the date okay. 29 June.
Nanti I send invitation to you allz okay.

[Oh my God I am watching Astro Ria and laughing at Ifa Raziah.]

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Actually the process was quite simple. I was just supposed to prick my mom’s finger, tap her blood on the sugar level device and it will tell us samada sugar level Mama tinggi atau tidak.

But I just couldn’t do it. Aku tak sanggup tengok setitik darah pun keluar dari badan Mama. Then I started crying. I couldn’t even get the damn thing to work so I gave up. That was last night.

This morning, my eldest sister ajar aku macam mana nak inject insulin pula. Normally my sisters would do it, and I have been able to avoid the task like a plague for the past 4 weeks. Aku tak sanggup. Tapi kerana tidak mahu menghampakan my family, aku cuba juga. Masa baru nak sukat insulin, aku sudah mula resah. My 2nd niece – si Anis – made a remark to her mother “Makcik macam nak nangis je, Umi?” Apabila jarum kecil itu sudah sedia dengan insulin-nya, my hand started shaking and sekali lagi I started crying, uncontrollably. Tapi my family pujuk juga and in the end, I managed to do it.

It was the longest 10 seconds of my life.

2 nervouse breakdowns.
Kalau macam ni lah keadaan aku tiap kali I have to inject insulin, isk, kang tak pasal2 aku pulak yang masuk hospital kang.

I’m sorry Mama, you know how much I love you. Please don’t be disappointed in me. I just need more time and strength to do this.