Round 14

You know what, it's not easy to stay motivated. It's a constant struggle and I try to fill my head with positive thinking. My battle with my weight is far from over. I just hope I could stop being impatient and expect to see fast results. Because there won't be any shortcuts.

Training has gone from okay-I-can-handle-this to hardcore. It's gonna be harder but I'm just gonna march on with whatever thrown at me. Squats, lunges, rpm, give them all to me.

In the meantime, bila nak control food ni?

Round 13

Ohhh that Master Pok has trouble waking up early! Arghhh our 7am sessions are often delayed by 5 to 10 minutes but today he was late for 15 minutes! I'm sorry but 7am is just not on for me let's do 715 next time, he said.
Hmpfth.

Maybe I'll just alternate morning and evening sessions. I really hate showing up late to work (not that anybody care) but morning workouts are the best right? Feeling great about myself today. And no visible pain whatsoever. See? Thoroughly enjoyed circuit training today although RPM (cycling workout) got me sweating like a pig in a sauna. >.<

Okay time for bed. Yes I'm aware it's not even 10 yet.

Minor feat

Just realized that I can now button my favorite jacket at the office. :)

Monday tee bee

So a colleague contracted TB recently and because I was in the same training with him few weeks ago, I (with 50 other colleagues) had to go through a TB screening today. What they didn't tell us was that we needed a shot too. Shit. 

Oh well, it's for our benefit anyway. I was nervous of course, until a colleague reminded me that child birth is more painful than getting a tiny jab. Oh-okay. 

Follow-up with the nurses on Thursday. I'm sure I'm okay, since I'm not showing any symptoms whatsoever.

On another note, I skipped training today.  My arms refuse to co-operate -- they're so painful! But as passé as it may sound, no pain no gain la hoh? Went for a light cardio workout at the gym near my office instead. 

And rewarded myself with panini chicken sandwich. I've been craving panini for the longest time. This is quite delicious I must say, despite the burnt look. :) 

Session with Master Pok resumes tomorrow at 7am.  Murdahhh! 

Round 12

Dapat pep talk pulak today. Master Pok said by end of the year, you'll be feeling great you'll look great but I need you to jaga makan! 

Okay will do my best. I'm serious! 

Circuit training today. I must be crazy to think that I can handle 2 trainings in 2 mornings in a row. But I did it anyway. We spring-cleaned in the afternoon and me, body aching and all, fell asleep until evening. I swear I dreamt about kettle bells flying above my head. 

Watching tv. Shit, Rachael Ray lookin' great these days. Ha! Jaga makan lettew!

Round 11

So Master Pok been feeling under the weather since he got back Thailand last Monday. Gastric katanya. So our sessions this week, although still strenuous, are more mellow (in other words I didn't feel like smacking him so much this time around). He said he is okay but he seems kinda pale lately. 

Me: Dude, you're looking kinda pale. Are you okay?

MP: Yup I'm okay. Of course I'm pale. I'm Cainis!

Me: Of course la. But there's a difference between a pale Cainis and a pale sick Cainis youknowwhatImean?

(>.<)

Round 12 tomorrow. How time flies!  

Splurge of the weekend: Bought a new yoga mat to replace the old one. Reebok gittew. 

Ok I'm off to bed. Today I sent my kain Raya(s) to a tailor my friends recommended. Oh the price. *gulp*

ttyl.

Round 10

First thing Master Pok said to me this morning: "Murdahhh"

Oh I was murdered alright. -_-

Paella.

Hmm now I'm craving paella from la bodega. And their tapas. And lamb cutlets!

Seems like the morning crowd in bangsar  are flocking Antipodean (non-halal) next door now. Guess la bodega has to step up a bit. Their usual chicken tandoori was pretty crappy today but I absolutely love their latte. 

Went to the park this evening. Managed a 10 mins brisk walk. Tried running but my calves still refuse to cooperate and there were too many things in my head. Sigh. 

Here's to a better and forgiving week. 

Mea Culpa.

I won't delete the post about my siblings. Just a grim reminder for me that terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata...

Thank you for reading. 

Mommy's day out

Going out with the boys today to meet my uni friends (haven't seen them for ages). Yup just me and my kids. I must be losing my mind. Me with the boys who only listen to their Ayah?!

Wish me luck. But in case you see a frantic mom chasing after two kids in rainboots, send help.

Stop.

I keep forgetting I'm not my siblings' banker nor financial advisor. Macam ni lah, I'm done with all three of you okay? I'm done preaching, I'm done telling you about how to save money, about your future savings, about your retirement, about long-term investments...

I'm tired and I'm done. The money of the dead can only bring you temporary joy. My only hope is that you don't come running to me when you need money. I've done my part as a sister. I hope you're happy. 

Round 9 and the weekend is here~!

Early morning session today, and most likely I'll go to the gym in the morning if possible. It feels fresher to go in the morning and I won't die of  heat in the car or worry about trying to beat the evening traffic if I were to go for an evening session. Or maybe do alternates. We'll see how it goes.

 

I thought there's only one type of evil planking but I was made to do 3 types of planking today (apparently there are 22 types in total) - spider planks, cat and bird plank (I made this up but I swear he mentioned some animals) and plank mountain climb while Master Pok did some push-ups to stay awake. I AM ROLLING MY EYES AS I TYPE THIS. The rest of the hour went by in a blur.

 

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I kinda miss drowning myself in a good book. But reading doesn't burn calories! No lah, actually I can't seem to find a good book to read right now. Either that or my attention span is as short as how I can keep the house in order haha.

 

Have a good weekend. Thinking of going for yoga on Sunday morning. My trainer is on leave until Monday but he ended his session yesterday with a caution: "Jaga makan".

 

Pffthh.

 

OK I'm hungry now. Peace out.

It's alright. Round 8

Had my first weigh in with Master Pok yesterday. A little bummed that my weight didn't show significant drop but it's alright (maybe I'm going through a weight loss plateau?). I'm thankful with the encouragements and support that I get from my family and friends but by the end of the day, it is still me who needs to sort myself out. Workouts yes, bring them on but I'm still having issues with saying no to unhealthy food. I CAN NEVER SAY NO TO FRIED RICE! *whimpers* I had nasi goreng for breakfast today.

 

Funny how Master Pok has a new word/phrase for every session with me. The other day it was "I'm feeling murderous", yesterday was "torture". I also get words like "suffer" or "Beyonce" etc. And I don't think personal trainers are paid to laugh at their clients!

 

We did 64026841 sets of lunges and push-ups and squats yesterday. I swear I could almost feel my legs ready to snap into two. Or four. Or nano-smithereens. When I say 'we' this means I make my trainer suffer as well by working out alongside with me (although he did it without even puffing at all. Pffthh). You know I have the right to torture him as well for laughing at me. Hah!

 

That aside, managed to secure G-Dragon's concert ticket in June. Hoping that this will be my last concert for the year then bam, I found out that CN Blue is coming in August. Shit.

 

Anyways, here is a picture of my eldest trying to make friends by doing whatever the other boy is doing. Whenever he make new friends he doesn't ask their names but automatically calls them 'kawan'. I don't know why some boys just don't want to be friends with him maybe because they think he's a girl? Boleh blah. Ibu will kick their sorry little asses.

Round 7

I ate so much last weekend and of course I had to work my ass off during Round 7 with Master Pok yesterday! Magically enough I can now maintain the same pace in ten minutes on the stationary bike and stepper. This is wonderful because it's a sign that my stamina is getting better. 

The only thing I hate to do is jumping because I still feel heavy. It's okay. Easy does it. After all we are working on strengthening my knees and legs first. Blah blah blah. 

You guys, Mustafa Jones' New York steak is delicious. Just sayin'.

Life is beautiful.

Happy Mother's Day

Hope you guys had a wonderful Mother's Day. Can't wait for the boys to grow big enough to understand Mother's Day so that they can throw a tea party for me or something. Hee hee.

Eurgh Monday tomorrow. Work piling up.

Notes from sore limbs.

• My eldest baby turned 4 recently!!! Such a beautiful soul this boy.
• I pretty much cut down on my twitter time since the GE13 (or weeks leading to the big day) because, okay, I get it, everyone has something to say. It's your platform to voice out your opinion and disgruntlement (shit is this even a word*). These days tumblr is my new friend because there's no politics there, only a disgruntled teenager (my niece), kpop stuff and fitness inspirations. Ha! Ha! 
  
• Glad that the weekend is almost here. Road trip to Raub tomorrow. I heard nasi hujan panas and ayam masak merah will be waiting. Can't wait.


• Session 5 & 6 with Master Pok were good. We've gone full cardio although lifting weights made me want to cry a little. I need to cut down on cursing though. Can't help it! 


• Mother's Day this weekend. Can't wait to see my pretty Mama.

You know, when life gives you lemons, just cut a few slices and drown them in warm water and drink! Especially in the morning. Good for digestion, boost immune system, balances PH levels, clears skin, freshens breathe etc!

Have a good weekend.

a stop.

I've stopped following 'plus size' instagrams, blogs or shopping websites. I need to stop feeding my delusion into thinking that I am plus-sized, when I'm actually not. All I need is to get fitter and eat healthier. Oh yes.

Weekend movie

Saw The Impossible today (heavy load laundry that needs to be folded always require a good movie to go with it). Think I cried 4 times throughout the movie! Can't imagine the trauma those survivors have to go through! :(

Long week ahead. Changes are happening within the organization and although I am spared (through word of mouth) I can't help but feel a bit sad that some of us might not be reporting to the same boss anymore.

Master Pok is on leave tomorrow! Small curses. Now have to unhinge my limbs and do my own workout until I see him again on Wednesday. Blah.

Round 4

Oh I'm sorry I'm just gonna update my progress here. Besides, don't you wanna see my before and after pic by the end of the year? *fingers crossed*

Friday's training was a bit easy. Wait, I should never say easy out loud. It will bite me in the butt sooner or later. I went to the gym nearby my office during lunchtime just to test my legs (they were fine, the dull aches were finally replacing the soreness) and braced the Friday traffic for my appointment with Master Pok.

Eh, I digress lah. Yesterday I walked on the treadmill for 8 mins (it's usually 10 mins, thank you MP) and he said we need to work on my arms. Ohkay, I hope it doesn't involve the dreaded weigh ball. Did squats with kettle ball, some liftings, hmmm and more liftings. Blek. Since my husband told him that I've been feeling down lately, Master Pok been encouraging by saying "CONTROL FOOOOOOOOD" and "no pain no gain". Dude, nobody uses "no pain no gain" anymore. That is sooooo the 80s! Sometimes I feel I can just kungfu kick my trainer. I could, I'm paying him good money what.

Aaaaand because I didn't feel so sore today, I tried Les Mills BodyStep in the morning. I'm a disgrace to myself! My coordination is terrible, and oh those steps made me feel like my knees will pop man! Talk about pushing myself over the limit. I think I should just stick to dancing like Zumba or BodyJam like the makcik2 in the gym. -___-

Okay time for bed. Happy voting tomorrow (you'll never see me talk publicly about politics ever, that's just not my forte) and VOTE GYM FOR LIFE.

Bye!

:)

Feeling much better today. So I miscalculated the weight I've lost so far. I know, I can't even do a simple Maths.

Weekend is almost here!

(Photo by Himchan BAP. I haven't been taking photos lately except of me and Rumi making faces)

Just one of those days

Wish I could wax lyrical about what I'm feeling right now but I can't. There is no dull aches in my joints because I am still unable to walk properly after last Tuesday's torture session. :/

I'm probably gonna look back on this post weeks later and think god Nate, you're such a wuss.

But I want to wallow in self pity as a wuss right now.

(image from tumblr)

Round 3

Crazy workout last night. Squats, push-ups, brisk walking moved up to walk-fast-but-try-not-to-fall-off-the-treadmill, planking, steps, ball passing while squatting, wah wah wah no mercy betul Master Pok now eh. I will never give up, although most of the time I'll be begging him to let me stop and catch my breath. I think he knows it too that I won't give up. I hate to disappoint him and most of all I don't want to disappoint myself (and my husband who has so much faith in me). The triumph lies in the high-five that I get from my trainer at the end of every session that signifies hey, I've made it for this round.

[gym posts will be labeled "sore today sexy tomorrow" from now on. Ah the stuff you get from Facebook!]

This is an article written by an ex-uni mate who lost so much weight. An inspiration indeed.
The amazing race.
And another one from a blogger's guest post: Weight loss story.

Also, I've signed up for my company's The Biggest Loser Challenge! First weigh-in will be tomorrow. It will run for 2 months so yeah! Let's do this!