Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Hmm lately ni banyak pulak orang lock blog mereka (okay fine, just 2 but still). You know who you are okay - jangan baca entry ini and go "huhhh me?" pulak.

Last weekend ketika makan ayam penyet cinta it turns out that Peterpan was eating at the table behind me. Like omg. Tapi actually Cik Nate buat tak tahu aja.. sebab Ariel takde pun. Because if he was around hell yes I would have posted a pic of us here bebeh.

Semalam first time in so many years aku mengigau. Mimpi kaki diheret di bilik mayat. Bila menjerit, ya Allah seksanya suara nak keluar. Hopefully malam ni takde recurring dreams - tak sanggup beb! Perhaps I should sleep with the lights on tonight.

Ok ciao dulu. I'm going back to KB on Thursday. Tidak terkata keseronokan untuk makan, makan dan makan!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Hmm nothing much to update.

This is the same answer ppl will get
bila mereka tanya how's the wedding preparation coming along.

Nothing much to update, because seriously, there's nothing much to update! hehe.

But in the meantime, save the date okay. 29 June.
Nanti I send invitation to you allz okay.

[Oh my God I am watching Astro Ria and laughing at Ifa Raziah.]

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Actually the process was quite simple. I was just supposed to prick my mom’s finger, tap her blood on the sugar level device and it will tell us samada sugar level Mama tinggi atau tidak.

But I just couldn’t do it. Aku tak sanggup tengok setitik darah pun keluar dari badan Mama. Then I started crying. I couldn’t even get the damn thing to work so I gave up. That was last night.

This morning, my eldest sister ajar aku macam mana nak inject insulin pula. Normally my sisters would do it, and I have been able to avoid the task like a plague for the past 4 weeks. Aku tak sanggup. Tapi kerana tidak mahu menghampakan my family, aku cuba juga. Masa baru nak sukat insulin, aku sudah mula resah. My 2nd niece – si Anis – made a remark to her mother “Makcik macam nak nangis je, Umi?” Apabila jarum kecil itu sudah sedia dengan insulin-nya, my hand started shaking and sekali lagi I started crying, uncontrollably. Tapi my family pujuk juga and in the end, I managed to do it.

It was the longest 10 seconds of my life.

2 nervouse breakdowns.
Kalau macam ni lah keadaan aku tiap kali I have to inject insulin, isk, kang tak pasal2 aku pulak yang masuk hospital kang.

I’m sorry Mama, you know how much I love you. Please don’t be disappointed in me. I just need more time and strength to do this.