Thursday, June 16, 2005

surat


surat
Originally uploaded by natinski.
A note I wrote to myself before I face reality. A stranger told me that he doesn't deserve me, and i've been chanting that since.

I made peace with myself last night. I'm not sorry for falling in love with him. I'm just sorry that it had to end this way.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Buat kali ke umpteenth aku putus cinta lagi.

Dengan orang yang sama.

Doktor kasi aku Valium. "It's just anxiety", katanya.

Anxiety. Setiap masalah gundah gelana, masalah duniawi, semuanya ada name. Medical term.

Tapi tiada siapa dapat mengubat PATAH HATI.

13 Jun 2005. Aku mati.

Tunggulah aku bangkit balik. Tapi tak tahu bila. Mungkin minggu depan, bila stok happy pills aku dah habis. Mungkin tahun depan. Mungkin,

mungkin tak mungkin lagi.